u/Bark4Brownies

If I were to “leave” the face of the earth would anyone actually miss me? My sis wouldn’t have have to worry about me and my older sister would have one less sibling to worry about, my mom… well she’ll have her other 2 kids, and my dad… he’s either mad or just annoyed…

the only thing keeping me here is my girlfriend, sure she could find someone else when/if I leave but I want her. Me.

and hey I guess if I were to “leave” the face of the earth I’d be able to see if Heaven and Hell are real, I used to believe in them when my grandma would take me and my sisters to church but then she stopped when she left

and who would really care besides my girlfriend, I doubt anyone would show up to my funeral if I did, maybe tell a joke at it that I’d usually say or something 🤷‍♂️

I heard this saying that read “most men don’t get their first flowers un their funeral” I guess it would be true considering that I’ve never ACTUALLY gotten flowers out of my 15 years, almost 16 years on the 30th of this month

I really just don’t know, why am I still here? I need a solid reason on why I should stay

So I sent this “I wanna get this off my chest, I’m scared, I’m scared I’m gonna lose you once you graduate, I’m scared we can’t stay together, I’m scared we’ll get pulled apart, because yes, I do wanna be with you even as an adult, yes I do wanna marry you at some point when I’m older, yes I do wanna have a kid with you at some point when I’m older, yes I do wanna be old with you, yeah I do wanna be with you forever, and that question you asked the other day, the one where you asked how long you think we’d know each other, I hope we know and love each other for as long as I possibly can, because every time I say “I love you” it’s not just another plain ol’ “I love you” I really mean it with my full heart.” to my gf and she had said “Can we agree to have a discussion when you come back?. I think we need to talk about our relationship and forthcoming” and ever since then she’s been ghosting me, think I might’ve overstepped with this one ? I’m a big over-thinker and I don’t know if I did anything wrong, I think I shouldn’t have told her, I had a friend who had told me that sometimes the truth is better left untold 😔

okay so I’m 15M looking for a job, preferably in North Kansas City so its easier to get from place to place, I was having trouble finding some 🙁

So I was talking to my homies earlier and they were messing with me because I'd never had sex before (I'm 15M btw and a Freshman) and I asked them how it felt, how to do it, if its awk, etc and they just started cracking up and walked off... and yes, I do know that this is a very weird question I just wanna know so when the time comes I'm not just walking into a jet black room and doing whatever