u/Barney_Bee_Me

I'm really scared right now. We had two back to back chemical pregnancies this and last month. It broke my heart. My OB ordered blood test and I just found out my A1C is 9.2%. I had gestational diabetes four years ago when I was pregnancy with my first. Diet controlled only and everything went well. Admittedly, with all the stress of raising a kid without no support, I haven't been keeping up with my GD diet. I've been very actively and working out 4-5 times a day. But I also have awful eating habits....

Now I'm really panicking. My OB hasn't gotten back to me yet in terms of next steps. I assume I should get my glucose in control before TTC again. But overall I just feel lost and scared and depressed, especially because I'm still bleeding from the second chemical pregnancy. I guess I just wanna ask what's gonna happen from now on.....

I had a chemical pregnancy last cycle. It broke me. But like my OB said, it could just be a one off. So we decided to try again this cycle, goy my BFP on 10DPO. Then the lines just didn't progressed the same as my other healthy pregnancy. This morning at 14dpo it fainted to almost nothing. Now I'm spotting. I'm just so so so sad. I feel like there's no hope and something must be so fundamentally wrong with us that we can't seem to make it stick. Any successful stories? What's the next step for us?