My wife dumped me again
I'm just feeling so frustrated and hurt. It's just so hard some days going through all of this. My wife and I have been separated for over 7 months, she filed for divorce in December. Last month we reconnected and were spending multiple nights a week with each other. She told me she loved me and wanted a fresh start. She still wanted the divorce but said she wanted to start new, the last marriage was tarnished. I was okay with that, I really just love her, don't need to be married to prove that. Anyway, it was going well for a month. We were hanging out, texting everyday, we slept together a few times. Suddenly, she told me it was all a mistake. She just was doing it because of a fawn response (she has PTSD from childhood trauma). I told her I understand and I'd give her space to heal. She said she might be open to something in the future. But the thing is, she just ignores me now. Ignores my texts, which are few since I didn't want to pressure her. She never wants to hang out anymore, which I expected we'd hang out less but not altogether. Anyway, I guess it just really hurts cause I feel like I've lost her twice now. The entire 7 months we've been seperated I've been working on myself. In therapy, working out, working on art, became someone completely new. I had moved on from her and accepted the divorce. So when she told me she loved me again I was shocked. I really thought there was no way I'd mess it up this time. And I didn't. So I just asked her in as non pressuring a way I could whether we'd still spend time together or if something had come up because she was ignoring me so much. She told me she was done with me, it was all a mistake and she'll never want me again. She told me I'm a horrible person. Anyway. I don't even know why I'm posting, it's my own fault I guess for thinking we'd work out. It just hurts so much to lose her again after already accepting it the first time.