What was this
When I was younger, this is maybe around 2020. Covid started not that long ago and Roblox was at its highest as well as online dating. I found my self a little friend group of two girls and a guy. Some time passes in the friendship and the girls were say that the guy I’ll just call him X, was being weird to them and saying weird things. I didn’t really know who to believe but him and I were already getting close and talking on our own. Eventually we start dating, there is a three year gap between us. One of the girls finds out, and she legit was being so weird to me, and I tell her it’s private yk. And she says relationships aren’t private. It’s whatever we stop being friends. She isn’t crucial to this story anyway. In our relationship he asks to erp, he asks if I know what it is, and unfortunately I did at eleven. We didn’t do anything crazy in the erp yet it was just normal kinky stuff people like to do. About three months in he says he’s “going away” and won’t text for a while. I don’t remember how long he was gone for, it could’ve been a month I was just there not having anyone to talk to. Eventually he comes back and I decide to break up with him a couple months after he comes back because I felt like all he wanted to do was role play and not talk to me. So we break up but over the course of the next 5 1/2 years that cycle repeats and repeats. I don’t know why I kept going back to him despite me complaining, but I feel like I really liked it. I complained about the erp but I liked doing it with him and I don’t know why. But there came a time when he asked me to do a weird rp a few times. I was a little girl and he was my older brother or uncle. I knew it was weird and wrong but I still stayed and went back after I left and he reached out to me. Last year I finally broke the cycle because I started talking to my now boyfriend of almost a year. I did have a support system when I was dealing with X, I feel bad their efforts didn’t do anything because I always went back but I just don’t know why I went back and think about him sometimes. One thing be also did was send me $h bandaged up out of no where. There was no context and I was so confused.