the guilt is consuming me
hi. i want to preface this by asking everyone to hold their judgement. i am a 23 yr old FTM who’s 9 weeks postpartum. so far my PP journey has not been easy in the slightest. i’m currently in therapy for PPD and they are talking about putting me on anti depressants and some other pills. last night after we put the baby down i made the poor choice to take an edible i had in the pantry. im not proud of it and all i want to do is make sure that im not hurting my baby. im exclusively pumping and we’ve been giving her milk the i’ve pumped the past couple days. im so paranoid of giving her the milk from this morning and afternoon. from what ive seen theres not a lot of research on the affects of gardening while nursing, and it stays in your system for up to 6 weeks. it’s been 18 hours since i’ve taken the edible. i am honestly freaking out, i promise im not a bad mom i just made a bad choice that i am DEEPLY regretting