u/BasilDifferent7605

I graduated today and yesterday was my graduation rehearsal. During the rehearsal we were given our caps and gowns, each packaged and sized for each individual person, and I didn’t get one. I run around asking about it and eventually call my mom. My mother was just at a music festival and was boarding the plane when I called her. Through a lot of back and forth she tells me that she’s not sure if she ordered it and thought they’d just give it to us. I don’t get too loud or emotional because I’m in school around people so I just hang up and text her that I was extremely mad. The rest of the day my dad was calling the gown place and I was stressing about not having a gown. When my mom got back from the airport, she didn’t say a single word to me about it. Today, my graduation, she asked about what to do for food and I said I wanted to stay home. Before I left, she came in and started asking about parking as if I wasn’t actively walking out the door. After graduation, I wanted to go take a Polaroid outside of my school so I went and did that. I told my mom to meet me back at our house. After taking the photo I go home and wait but my family never comes. I check Life360 and they are at a restaurant. My mom texted me saying that I was punishing her and the family and that she worked so hard to get my gown over the last day. I texted her back saying I wasn’t punishing her and was instead removing myself from a situation where I don’t want to be and where I don’t seem to be wanted. They went to the restaurant and didn’t tell me so I called my mom crying. I asked why she was there and why she didn’t tell me and she told me that they were waiting for me to come, as if they didn’t tell me what they were doing. When I went to dinner, barely anyone talked to me about my graduation or anything. My grandma told me to just ignore it and that everyone makes mistakes. My mom didn’t even look at me. I want to know if I’m over reacting. I am so insanely hurt by the fact she didn’t even order my gown in the first place. She’s blaming it on having to many emails and things to do, but I am her child, I am graduating, this is a huge important thing and she couldn’t even order my gown for it. I was stressed the entirety of yesterday because I was the only kid in my class who didn’t have a gown, I thought my graduation would be ruined. Even after telling her that and telling her that I didn’t feel cared for, she just deflected everything. She said it was my responsibility and I also could’ve done more, as if I didn’t repeatedly remind her months ago and as if I’m not still her kid and as if I don’t get the school emails because she’s my guardian. I just wanted the end of my awful school experience to have gone okay and everything went against me. I feel like I’m insane and talking in an alien language when my family can’t understand how hurt I am. It’s like my graduation is a big deal but isn’t, my feelings matter but they don’t. I don’t know what to say or do to make my mom understand how much she hurt me. I’m second guessing myself over potentially having my graduation ruined, and she didn’t even talk to me after. When we got back from dinner, she got in her car and left. What do I do?? I feel wrong and insane for feeling this and I don’t know what to say to get her to understand that this is serious. Is it even serious? This is the place to figure it out so please help me. Thank you kind reddittors.