Doing well...and then not
I am 8 weeks post-TFMR for T13.
I had actually been feeling "better" in the last week or so - so much so that I felt guilty for feeling better and was also worried I was blocking out the horrible thing that had happened. I couldn't pinpoint why I felt more like myself, but it was nice for a little while.
Then the bill for the procedure came.
Then two neighbors nonchalantly announced their pregnancies that are a few weeks after my due date.
Then the grief has been hitting my husband extremely hard.
Now my "good" feeling has gone away. I think what has been really difficult is dealing with grief and not being able to tell people about it. I have told close family pretty much everything, but not sure what to do about acquaintances. I had thought about when and how to tell neighbors, but at this point, I don't think we ever will. While I am jealous of the pregnant neighbors (I hate that this experience has made me a jealous person), I would feel horrible to point out that I was "supposed" to have a baby around their time, too, making it seem like I want them to feel bad.
Guess we will just be the weird, sad neighbors.