I want to work in my game and health doesn’t allow me
Sounds kinda stupid but I got this idea for a game and been working really hard on it, It’s long and convoluted but I’m learning a lot of programming and design and even math in the process, I’m constantly thinking about it and even stopped playing most games so I can dedicate more time to the one I’m making. I even made a 40 pages long design document detailing the steps and milestones towards finishing the prototype with notes and ideas for possible features. So in general I’m very hyped because I’ve made a lot of progress and is looking crazy good so far.
Small detail tho, I got the whole idea for the game while being very injured, I had an accident and even tho I thought I was good at first, turns out my back is really very not well, I’m being to the ER 4 times already and they haven’t been able to pinpoint what might be wrong with my back, and sadly am on fucking United of the fucking States and now I gotta pay a fucking quadrillion dollars so a dumbass can tell me he doesn’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m broke as anyone and now I gotta pay out of pocket for specialists and scans and shit with money that I don’t have, and that’s not even the worst, I made peace with the fact that I might be terminally broke, the worst is that I CANNOT sleep, it’s been like 2 weeks already and the pain doesn’t allow me to it, and on top of that I have to work and there have been days where I’ve been on the brink of fainting because of how fucking tired I am.
And yet I just wanna make my stupid little game, today I worked a lot on it making debugging tools, and the ER gave me Percocet to see if I could sleep with that, I was so happy thinking I would finally be able to work on my game in peace. Spoiler alert it’s 4am and I’m standing because it’s the only position where it does not hurt.
I don’t know, I know it’s a bummer but it’s 4am I’m sad and in pain and I want it to unwind. Wish me luck if you can please
TLDR; FUCK HEALTH INSURANCE AND ALL THEIR FUCKING BULLSHIT