this is gross but I cannot deal with taking out trash (the can lives on my porch now), dirty dishes (ran out of silverware tonight) and my husband works out of town a lot. this week it feels like the house neglect has accumulated and I’m treading water to keep from drowning. I work full time out of the house in a very physical and social job nothing left when I get home at night. I‘M BUYING A COUNTERTOP DISHWASHER.
I was pressured to eat ceviche at dinner last night by an acquaintance who wouldn’t stop asking why I wasn’t eating seafood right now. He asked multiple times why and after I long pause where I wished he would just drop it but he didn’t, I said “because I’m pregnant.” He is arrogant and annoys me in general. He owns the restaurant and was hosting a dinner for a visiting artist I’d hosted an event for. So these are not people I regularly engage with. But after last night I still feel humiliated and annoyed. I wish I had been more quick to answer better excuses. This annoying old man knows I’m pregnant before my own father, before my close friends. I don’t trust him and I wish I hadn‘t blurted anything. He is also gentrifying my small town and I was the only local at the table and felt so misunderstood and almost belittled.