5th loss. Not sure what to feel
I just had my fifth loss less than a week ago and I don't know what am I suppose to feel. I had a silent miscarriage and needed a d and c. I had two miscarriages, a stillbirth and a micro preemie that didn't make it. I had two uterine infections and didn't want a third. I thought I was over having these losses and it won't happen again. I guess I feel numb or blocking it out. Or I used the same coping mechanisms so often that it feels like an old hat. I'm re-reading my books on pregnancy loss again and finding comfort in that. I was grieving the day I found out about my loss and the day after I was floating into the operation. Am I just giving myself too short of a time line to grieve? Or did I just move on quickly? Or it just didn't hit me yet?