Should I quit my new grad med surg job
So my hospital really isn’t that bad at all. I feel like a lot of my leadership and a lot of the nurses are really nice and supportive. I am on my third shift off orientation. I had 12 weeks on orientation. I just am having a really hard time dealing with the stress and responsibility of having peoples lives in my hand. I feel extremely stupid every time I give report or leave a shift. I cry most nights after work because of the anxiety I feel. I worry about making mistakes and I have made a a lot of mistakes so far. I even had a med error. I will say every mistake I learn a lot from, but I don’t want to continuously have to fail to learn. Especially in an environment where you can really hurt a patient. I feel like a hospital environment is not for me. I know I would thrive in a specialized outpatient setting where I could really get familiarized with what I am doing and do the same thing every day. The unpredictability of med surg float pool keeps me up at night. My biggest fear is hurting a patient out of my own ignorance. I know I would thrive elsewear but is it a horrible idea to quit this early? I started at this hospital as a cna, the hospital is 5 mins from my house, it has good benefits, and I’ve only been here as a nurse for a couple months. I know that it would be best for my career to just suck it up and do a year here but it’s just really weighing on me. And it’s really not the specific hospital that’s the problem, it’s a hospital setting in general. There is a job 30 mins from my house that’s an OBGYN outpatient job that I would really be interested in. I know people are gonna say it will get better and I’m sure it will, I just am an extremely accident prone person and I’m afraid I’m gonna hurt someone before it gets better. Maybe I should be working in a less high risk environment. I don’t know.. I’m really torn. Any advice or anyone experiencing the same feelings? No need to sugar coat, you can be completely honest