u/BeccaBean16

so i (18F) decided to quit weed 21 days ago after 2 years of smoking because i started developing what i believed to be CHS (cannibanoid hypermesis syndrome) and its been so difficult.

i havent had severe cravings because i miss the weed, but i miss the way it made me feel. i miss not overthinking about everything, not feeling sad all the time, not having that outlet that i could always rely on to help my brain just stop. and i dont know what to do.

i also would smoke with my mom just one on one and now my brother and sister smoke with my mom without me and its really saddening to feel so left out, especially that they started right after i stopped. i really dont want to smoke again, but part of me wants to just to rebuild that connection and of course make my brain fucking stop. but i really really dont want to.

i genuinely just feel so alone and sad all the time and like no one understands how hard this is right now. anyone else here experience something similar? even with just the overwhelming sadness all the time?

i've been smoking weed for 2 years, the first year was only on weekends and like 1-2 joints, but in the last year its been daily 1-1.5 joints. and for about the last 2 months, i started using a pen, only after 12pm everyday, i was never a wake n bake kinda person. anyways, the last month, ive been waking up feeling kinda bad? it started with just nausea, not every single morning and not throwing up or anything, and no stomach pains whatsoever. i was also eating really terribly, like no food all day if i worked or only junk food if i didnt, and then severe night time over eating almost every night, i mean a pint of ben and jerries, chips, waffers and more.

after about a month of eating really bad, id wake up feeling severely nauseous and i would throw up occasionally. then in the last week and a half ish, id wake up nauseous every morning and throw up maybe 3-4 times over that week. i still never had any other symptoms, like, no stomach pain or insomnia or anything, and my nausea would go away after throwing up in the morning. i still decided to quit smoking and eating bad for the last 5 days and i feel completely normal again.

i just cant tell if the quitting weed helped my nausea or fixing my eating habits. i am willing to quit smoking if that is the problem, i just miss spending time with my mom (she smoked with me) and id like to be able to smoke again even if its after multiple months. i just want to know if anyone has had maybe similar problems from night time over eating or if it seems to be caused by the smoking.