r/QuittingWeed

Why did I do this to myself? I have no clue but I want to just deal with it all head on. My sleep is alright, I wake up once or twice a night but I usually fall back asleep pretty quickly. The issue I’m having is panicking/anxiety. Even like going out with people is hard because my mind will start to race and my heart will feel as if it’s gonna explode but in reality my bpm is fine, cold sweats and all.

I hope this will pass, I got prescribed some 7mg nicotine patches and some Hydroxyzine, got the patches (haven’t used because I don’t wanna reset the withdrawals) but the meds won’t be available until Monday smh. My appetite is very slowly improving, I’m not able to eat big meals, and sucks I stopped caffeine because a Diet Coke was my staple for a lot of my meals😭 just figured I’d vent a bit!

I quite cold turkey almost 3 days ago and I’m miserable. I’ve been so nauseous, anxious, irritable, tired, and I have cold sweats. I was smoking for a little over 2 months everyday multiple times a day. I also stopped using nicotine the same day will that make withdrawals worse? How long until I start feeling a little better I feel like I’m just getting worse.

I’ve abused alcohol for 9 years, I didn’t drink a lot everyday just most days I’d have a few and on the weekends I would often get black our drunk. I would also smoke weed in combination. I’ve been very up and down with alcohol and weed but never had more than 2 weeks without a drink or a few months without weed.

The past 2 years I don’t drink hard as much just mainly a few drinks 5 nights a week or so while smoking weed. After any jobs during the day I’d smoke up, any feeling good or bad it would make it better. I have quite an active lifestyle, I do extreme sports and love the adrenaline, I am physically fit and eat a whole food diet.

I feel like over the years I just have to keep my mind active and focused and stimulated. I used to take harder drugs but had a couple overdoses so don’t use them anymore. I know the smoking was bad as I would always treat myself instead of thinking ahead. I worked hard when I needed to.

I met my girlfriend 2 years ago now, she’s been amazing, she smoked and drank with me but over time we drank less and just smoked. When we went to Thailand for 2 months it was so easy, I feel like I wasted so much time there. When I came back from Thailand we started a new job together and I mostly felt like I was on autopilot the whole time. I enjoyed some of the time at work but I would get quite frustrated at a few of the people because they were extremely egotistical and rude and lazy.

We had a 2 month break from the job and I was living with my girlfriend when we did our own freelancing jobs. I started getting quite anxious about things in the world and I decided to stop smoking. Somehow it was easy mostly in the beginning, I didn’t feel the need for it.

But I became too practical in my mind, I was criticising myself and my girlfriend for being what I deemed impractical, and other people. I started getting sensitive to smells and feelings.

During this time I was quite overwhelmed when I was drinking and got myself so drunk I made a fool out of myself and got my girlfriend physically hurt while moving me when I was unconscious. This was a big wake up call for me and I decided to stop drinking all together.

I’ve been good and not drank or smoked and it’s been hard sometimes. I used video games mainly to keep myself busy, unfortunately I was not giving my girlfriend a lot of attention and I very much regret this now.

When we started back at work I was feeling very anxious about working with the same people, I tried to be happy and join in on their banter but found it quite hard. I had responsibilities to do and needed their help but they made it hard and I struggled to be around them. My girlfriend was very supportive of me and I wish I was more grateful to her.

I told her I didn’t want to be around them and even one time she came home in tears because they were picking on her. I was very stressed pondering on things the whole time so I started focusing on keeping busy more by making things and working out more intensely.

We went out on a really lovely date and I had such a nice time with her, so did she. Then it was the last week of work, she spent almost every night staying late having drinks with everyone from work. She never invited me which I was a little upset about but at this point I was really trying to cope being around these people.

On the last night she said she wanted to stay the night, this upset me quite a lot as I thought I’d done something to her. She spent the night and came home the next day saying she wanted to talk, she wanted to break up because she felt I was holding her back from what she wants to achieve.

I understand we had different ideas in life but I never meant for her to feel so stuck. I never said she had to follow me where I went but it was always a pleasure having her around. I know she didn’t cheat on me so that’s not an option.

I’m so upset because we just finished that job and I was going to be free of those people from work. I was feeling so down those last few weeks but she made me happy and I thought I made her happy too. She wants her freedom to do what she wants and I respect that greatly, I tried to encourage her many times. But sometimes my over practical thinking discouraged some of her ideas.

I will be leaving the country soon and won’t see her for years potentially. She was very nice about the breakup, she’s always been good to me. She needs her space and I respect that and I’ve not bothered her since. I did meet up to give her some things back, we talked and she was so happy and motivated. I got upset and asked her for a date before I left, she said no. I was upset full tear and everything.

Most of the time I’ve known her I’ve not been very emotional but right now all my emotions are so strong. I would love to see her before I go, just to catch up, I know things can’t work out long distance but I love her.

I can barely sleep now, all I think about is how I put myself before her and criticised her. I do my hobbies everyday and try and mingle with people but I just feel like an alien. But also I feel very strong physically and feel like I have unlimited stamina till I crash. I struggle to sleep with a racing mind and my dreams are severe. Any advice?

I’ll keep yall updated lol. If you are trying to quit smoking, here’s my experiences doing it cold turkey lol

Best decision I have ever made, EVER. Haven’t felt this good in a long ass time, extremely productive, stable mood, loving life. Let it go.

That’s it, that’s the post.

Thanks to everyone who’s commented and gave recommendations / support 🙏

If I can do it why can’t you?

hi all just want to write here to see if I can not only get some answers, but also share my experience that can maybe help others (just as reading some responses on here and other subreddits have helped me through this process)

for context- i have been smoking carts since 2017 when hanging out with friends etc. but never started buying my own and smoking daily until 2019.

i've gone on maybe 4-5 T-breaks throughout this time period, most of the time involuntary due to vacation and not having access (and never lasting longer than 2 weeks, then going right back on the horse), but this is my first time really taking an intentional break.

for context, i've smoked pre-rolls, from a bong, edibles, etc... but most of my addiction and reliance has been from high-potency carts (i want to say anywhere between 70-90%, much higher % in the last 2 years since it seems like the stuff from dispensaries have only continued to climb higher and higher in %)

i would say that between 2022-2024 i was still enjoying my time, but around 2024 and beyond is when i realized something needed to change.

i was smoking all day, as soon as the day started all the way until when the night hit. i never hit blinkers, but i would often stack back to back 5 second draws. at one point i bought a device that had a counter, and i think in the 1.5 years that i had it, i ran that thing up to nearly 1500-1600 hits before throwing it away.

i was routinely going through 1G carts in about 3 weeks, then 2.5 weeks, then 2 weeks, then at my worst i would kill half a 1G cart in 3 days... and i was chasing diminishing returns, it was no longer fun nor was i getting high really (other than the first hit of the day)... i was just smoking to run away from the feelings of feeling bad. looking at my journal jan of this year i was still crushing them: 26 days to empty, 16 days to empty. 12 days to empty in march. 14 days to empty in june. june-july destroyed 1.5g over two months, which started to be better but still not great. throughout july-august-september leading up to my T break i was really struggling, taking 1-2 hits here and there but I was already starting to feel withdrawal- i would feel my GI doing backflips and would journal about it.

so now where am i? i did have a relapse 9 days ago, when i was out with some old friends that smoke and took two hits off a cart. the "fun high feelings" rushed back in and i was extremely inebriated, and it did feel fun and good again. i could tell my tolerance has dropped significantly from this T-break given that the high lasted much longer than usual when i was abusing. i did relapse for 4 days in a row after this, with at max 2 hits per day of 2-3 second draws of 90%+ carts.

personal timelines:

day 1-5: the absolute worst. extremely moody and not feeling well. next to no appetite. flu-like symptoms, extreme GI discomfort. tons of anxiety, everything was irritating me.

day 5-8: suddenly bounced back and emotionally felt better, and libido was still somewhat intact. still some feelings of sinus and throat congestion.

day 9-30: during this time i could steadily feel like things were getting better. food was tasting better, but my GI was still going crazy. mood was still not the greatest and still irritable, but i did feel like things were going in the right direction linearly. every single day slowly did get better, and overall i can feel like i can take a deeper breath than i ever have been able to when i was smoking regularly.

day 30-present: again things have overall gotten better. still having GI issues but they are much less. of course when i relapsed then i felt really good during this time, but then the week right after the relapse i could feel the acute withdrawal symptoms again (really irritable, overall really not feeling good, and mood not great). but now i feel like i'm back on the straight and narrow and things are linearly getting better.

however, i am still having tons of issues with sleeping and libido. does anyone have any experience / idea for when my sleep and libido will return to normal? i do cardio 30 minutes a day at least and lift heavy at least 3 times a week. i used to have a rather high sex drive, but now i do feel like i have ED or something.. i'm in my mid 20s. maybe it's that my dopamine levels are still in a trough and have yet to bounce back?

this has been my experience, and while i'm still not out of the woods yet (and definitely no saint as you can see by my relapse), i hope that if you are reading this and think it's time to give it up, you take that sign seriously. aside from my libido and sleep disruptions, it has really helped me in every aspect of my life.

mental clarity, not sweating like crazy like i did when i was addicted, no anxiety when driving, being able to articulate myself better. attention span has increased. tons and tons of benefits. as you can see i am still going through the tail end of the withdrawal symptoms and still haven't had a full recovery, but it is worth it to at least prove to yourself that you can do it. your body will also thank you.