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I was supposed to go see my freind down in DC, he got a new yatch and everything. Too bad I relapsed in May and have been stuck on my couch ever since, getting up got a glass of water is hard enough let alone ordering a plane ticket online let alone traveling while I got weed induced social anxiety. Im sober today and dont want any but its too late, ironic this is the day i had enough.

5-6 years ago my old freind group fell apart, I spent my b day alone and i told myself, "that's it, next year is gonna be different, im gonna quit and leave the house and not be alone". Nothing changed, I have spent every b day, 4th, Halloween, new year since then alone. I have absolutely 0 freinds left in this state, no love life and its all 100 percent bescuwe of weed.

Electrical engineer specializing in RF and mixed signal PCB hardware deisgn.I have to choose between 2 great opportunities and I generally cant decide When u add up the pro/con weights of each they equal each other..

Option 1: Quantum computing company. Will design super high Q/ low phase noise rf synths/PLLs and extremely percise analog front ends. Its a start up. Problem is that its an hour commute each way and every day on-site. Maybe occasional wfh like 1 day a week. I would move after a year or two(if theres still a job, these startups lay people off a lot). But everyday on-site sucks a lot for dozens of reasons including me not being able to give 110 percent to the comapny cuz traffic is mentally exhausting.

Option 2: Radar hardware design engineer. 4 days a week wfh. I am disappointed as it seems pulsed radar is in the mhz section of the UHF band and im used to desining front ends 15-25 ghz. Im sure the RX will be more advanced than a regular front end cuz of the weak incoming signal..

Also, forgot to mention, I would have to drop out of my graduate program and spent 10k a year on doggy day care if I take the quantum compjting job. But it is the type of job u get a masters for in the first place so its hard to say if its worth it.

Idk what to choose, I guess i would choose the quantum job in a heart beat if it wasnt full time onsite as its more challenging and a novel new field, but in office every day is torture. Also there will be at least 1-2 years of commuting an hour each way before I can move. On top of that its a start up. My career will be fine either way in terms of being gainfully employed. Its just a matter of me wanting to be challenged and working with cutting edge tech and having personal freedom and convince. I am interested in radar and if that ws my only offer I would be on the moon but this choice ruins the entire mood. Have to get back to one of them soon and tell them nevermind lol..

Before any corporate dude start talling about how u cant do RF or any engineering in a hybrid environment im litteraly doing that right now for one of the biggest RF companies in the world..