Broke 8 month sobriety

Been smoking again for about a 2 weeks
I’ve quit multiple times but the longest since 2017 has been recently with 8 months before picking it up again two weeks ago

There’s nothing here guys, really
We’re better off without it… emptiness crept in real quick

I gotta stop

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u/allowsight — 18 hours ago
▲ 4 r/steak

Sirloin on nonstick

Nonstick pan, cooked solely in its own fat
Straight raw dogging the process with love and spirit
The steak gods love me and me them
A little overcooked to my liking it took me quite a while to plate so set a few extra mins prior to cutting
The plate gods hate me and me them
I eat raw celery because Imma dog like that

u/allowsight — 19 hours ago

Alexandria fragrances appreciation post

Ordered from Alexandria about 5 times, mostly dupes but some of their own creations as well

If you haven’t heard about them I think you should look at them asap, spot on dupes, and the ones that aren’t spot on tend to either last longer or smell better or both

So with my recent order of yet another bottle of Tygr’s dupe, “Black panther”, I requested for a specific sample of Bois de Portugal by creeds dupe named “highlands”, they tend to send samples so I figured I’d just ask for a specific one I’m interested in

Not only did the oblige, they added 2 more samples of what seems to be unreleased frags they’re working on

  1. Power of a Diva:
    Probably a girls frag, I smell grapefruit or tangerine and mango and this sweet silky vanilla mixed with some aquatic accords and florals

Something that I’d be pretty happy if a girl wore on a date in which she decided shes gonna lay me, something a mermaid will wear to a hot summer early dinner
2. Mango sin, and listen when I tell you
F all these other mango scents
F them
I’ll start by saying my sample broke because I dropped it, 2 minutes after applying it for the first time, like an hour ago

Besides that, this smells like mango sorbet, this spicy, musky thing I imagine to be saffron, might be some leather, the slightest most comforting oud and woody notes

The whole thing is now smeared all over my stairs with parents coming home in 3 days this place is gonna reek with the nicest frag ever but they hate frags so I’m done for BUT

This scent is really something I’m telling you, not only is it 40 C* here where I’m from and this smell is not only tolerable but quite soothing, I wouldn’t wear it myself in this heat, but let’s say it’s one of the most operable heavy wood scents for summer, at least imho
Again, musky sweet ripe mango sorbet with woody and what might be smokey/spicy/leathery notes
satisfying mature innovative nuclear probably shines brightest in cold weather

So
Im not allowed to tell you to Ch3ck them out because of subs rules lol but please do
I love em

Btw my highlands dupe sample is fantastic might need to sit a lil bit more, bends a bit more spicy\woody than the OG but still smells extremely similar and well made, wouldn’t go as far as saying it’s BETTER this one, but it’s well good enough for you to ngaf considering the price compared to the OG

They have dupes of so many frags just search your fav wishlist in their site

and I’m saying it might need to sit a bit because some of them do, had 2 others among the maybe 35 samples I got from Alexandria which completely changed shapes from something incomprehensible to a beautiful scent with the transformation rate stranding from 2 weeks to 3 months even

u/allowsight — 3 days ago
▲ 144 r/Fragrantica+1 crossposts

Is my impulsive spending justified?

Just pulled the trigger on this one.

I have never had the opportunity to smell or test it, but some people I know really (as we already know) hype it up

Can you guys give me an honest opinion?
I would appreciate if you elaborate to the best of your degree as in if overhyped why and if the hype is justified for that matter

It’s supposed to arrive in a few days and I’m simply interested in where the community stands on this one atm

u/HallSuper3792 — 7 days ago

Am I the only one?

Hey

So I’ve been trying to practice mindfulness meditations and the tapes in order to reach more insight about… whatever honestly for quite some time now (I assume about 4 years)

Firstly I’ve got a small question about vibrations-
Am I the only one who’s able to tell when they’re about to
happen?

it’s gotten to the point where I would awake in a half asleep state during micro awakenings at night, and what would usually happen is you’d (I’d) go back to sleep as normal, well lately it’s gotten more “obvious” that sometimes during these little awakenings they would have that “oh it’s bout to happen” feeling to em, and usually shortly after that gut feeling I start experiencing vibrations (who still, usually lead to nothing but excitement or fear and the experience diminishes completely) Has anyone had this experience? Where the amount of times you’re waking up is more noticeable, and to add to it, the vibrations became more frequent?

I haven’t been able to go out yet apart from a single night pretty recently which I wouldn’t call a “successful ap” but still, was the furthest I’ve ever got to one:

when I went to bed high, and woke up at around 7 am.. just knew that it was 7 btw, and literally sat straight up from a back sleeping pose with 0 resistance and looked at my sleeping lower body and was like “oh this is NOT the time to stay here”, and was sucked straight back to my freshly woken distorted body (I could feel my aether body lifting to a sitting pose, and simultaneously “feel” the weight of my physical one in complete sleep paralysis)

So, I guess the question is:

Is the frequency of opportunities like vibrations and just general embitterment of conscious awareness during micro awakenings a sign of getting closer? What should my next step or focus be on? I have quite some fear whenever I feel vibrations. Of entities or bad karma that I carry from this reality to come and terrorize me. I’m no saint, and I did some stuff I’m not proud of. How do I let go of this fear of death? And the fear of being judged for my actions? I believe that’s what’s holding me back from being allowed to fully commit and let go.

The whole thing of me TRULY believing in this kind of stuff has only happened about a year ago, I had a good amount of time of being able to live quite authentically and becoming more aware, and then one night I experienced vibrations, and just KNEW I experienced something that’s significant, yet didn’t know what is was or what to make of it. I say this because i I believe truly that if living authentically and with good intentions, if you got the capacity and conscious way of living to listen to the universe, it will whisper you’re on the right track. That was my whisper after a difficult time and I’ve been chasing more knowledge and experience since then.

How would you guys proceed from my position? Would love to hear your thoughts

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u/allowsight — 12 days ago

Thoughts on Bois du Portugal for 26M

I was smelling some creed the other day and had an amazing time smelling the sample I took of Bois du Portugal, wondering how’d you guys perceive this fragrance.

I can’t manage to decide if it’s too young or rather too old but overall I really like the way this opened and all the way up do the dry-down had some great composition while unraveling

Is this suitable as a 26M signature for fall-winter?

u/allowsight — 16 days ago

Has anyone ever put their nose on this?

I got a sample of safran royal a couple months ago, to this day it is one of the most stunning fragrances I’ve ever put my nose on.

I’ve been contemplating getting it for so long and I think I’d wait till winter. But GAH DAAAMMN this shit is FIRE dude

Some reviews (of the very few that has been around since its release) say it’s a simple fragrance that does offer much more than any other leather saffron fragrances, yet I wholeheartedly believe it’s one of the better crafted ones, it’s fucking nuclear in both longevity and projection and honestly just smells fantastic and mature and yet very subtle and not overly complicated.

So, I suggest you guys give it a try :) haven’t seen it get any love nowhere

u/allowsight — 16 days ago

Can’t get enough of this guy

[spb505]

Got it 2 days ago, complimented 5 times already by strangers

I seriously can’t take my eyes off of it, no watch has brought me to this state of satisfaction

Pull that trigger guys

u/allowsight — 16 days ago

First watch obtained [spb505]

After craving it for quite a few months I gifted myself this pure eye candy

My first watch! I love it

u/allowsight — 18 days ago

Alpinist spb505 vs spb117

\[Seiko alpinist\] Would yall be so kind to give me your thoughts and takes on both of these?

Planning to get my first watch soon and I’ve been contemplating the two.

Are they first watch worthy? Am I a complete watch kook for wanting an alpinist prospex? All opinions and takes are welcome.
Thank you in advance :)

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u/allowsight — 19 days ago

Two question about focus 10 and 12. Help will be much appreciated

Hey guys, so I decided to repeat the tapes and start all over again, so I can take my time and practice each one properly. I have two questions for the community, each experience and tips will be of great help to me. So thank you in advance.

  1. ⁠When in focus 10, I can still feel the blanket over my body, specifically around my torso area, since it is moving up and down as I breath. I repeated the focus 10 tapes at least 8 times in the past week, and can enter that state quite easily. Is it normal to still be able to feel the blanket over your body? I’m pretty sure other than that my focus 10 is in a pretty good state. My body awareness is close to nonexistent other than what I stated.

  2. ⁠How do you guys know when you have successfully achieved focus 12? What are the signs? Other than “the black behind the eyes seems to expand”. I’m not quite sure I can get it right at the moment, and would appreciate any tips!

Stay positive, stay true, and stay curious.

Love to you all

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u/allowsight — 1 month ago

2 questions I struggle with, regarding focus 10,12

Hey guys, so recently I decided to restart the tapes. I believe giving each one a few plays over and over again will prepare me better for what’s to come and I don’t wanna rush through them

I have 2 main questions I’d like to ask the community:

  1. When in focus 10, I can still feel the blanket over my body, specifically around my torso area, since it is moving up and down as I breath. I repeated the focus 10 tapes at least 8 times in the past week, and can enter that state quite easily. Is it normal to still be able to feel the blanket over your body? I’m pretty sure other than that my focus 10 is in a pretty good state. My body awareness is close to nonexistent other than what I stated.

  2. How do you guys know when you have successfully achieved focus 12? What are the signs? Other than “the black behind the eyes seems to expand”. I’m not quite sure I can get it right at the moment, and would appreciate any tips!

Stay positive, stay true and stay curious.

Thanks

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u/allowsight — 1 month ago