Reached out after 3 months
So my quiet bpd ex reached out with something vulnerable for the first time in months. In hindsight I'm pretty sure they were breadcrumbs, and I shouldn't have responded, but I did. She sent me a message at almost midnight that said "I don't know how to reach out to you, or be human with you. Maybe I can't. Drove by your general work area today and it was weird. It sucks. How are you?" What does that even mean?!
I replied later that It was good to hear from her. That I wasn't sure that I would. This whole situation sucks, that I have good days and bad days and that I miss her. She replied the next morning with "Well, I wasn't going to disappear forever 😊. I'm sure we both need time and space to heal. I shouldn't drink and text lol. Just wanted to see how you were." This was a gut punch for sure. Walking it back like that.
I later (I know, I know) replied that whatever the reason, it was good hearing from her. That it was nice to see her name on my phone again. She ❤️ reacted to it, and said yours too. What the hell?
For some context we "broke up" in February after a really close weekend together where everything went well. The following week she said she was overwhelmed, out of control, splitting a lot, felt pressure. She said she needed a break from the intensity. That she didn't want to go no contact.. Not that it means anything, or maybe it does, she has since changed her instagram username, changed her avatar like 5 times, deleted a post from Valentines Day. A day she canceled plans on me but still posted a selfie or herself all dressed up with a caption of any excuse to celebrate love.. Puke.
Any sort of insights or comments are welcome. Thank you!