I (22F) broke up with my boyfriend (22M) of 5 years on Monday, got back together with him Tuesday out of guilt, and now I don't know how to get out.
When I broke up with him, it wasn't because of one specific thing, I've just lost my feelings completely. He felt more like a friend than a partner, but I had a hard time telling him that, I eventually did but I also told him everything that made me lose my feelings, which is everything that was wrong in our relationship for me. He took it really badly, was crying a lot, and I panicked and got back together with him the next day thinking maybe I could try to get my feelings back. But I can't. I know I can't.
To make things more complicated, I've had a crush on someone else for about a month. I never acted on it, and it wasn't the main reason I broke up with him, but it made me realize how emotionally checked out I already was. He asked me if there was someone else and I said no, because nothing happened and it wasn't the reason I left.
He's been saying he'll work on all the issues I brought up, but I know that's not the problem. The feelings are just gone.
What makes this even harder is that he was there for me during a really dark period in my life. He supported me when I was struggling, and now that I'm in a better place, leaving feels like I'm abandoning him when it's his turn to need support. I feel like I'm betraying him just by being okay.
The situation is also a mess logistically, all his stuff is at my place because he has issues with his apartment and can't stay at his parents'. He refused to let me give him my apartment and sleep elsewhere, and on Monday he wouldn't even go to his parents' because he was too upset.
I know it's over for me. He's a good person and I don't want to hurt him, but I know staying is wrong. How do you end things kindly when someone is this vulnerable and has nowhere to go?