I don't need to be rescued
I don't need to be saved from this place, I see that now. I don't need you to move me into your house before surgery. I don't need you to fix things.
I do need you to be there when I wake up. That's all I'm asking right now. We don't have to rush things, we know we're meant to be together.
Now that you are in my life again the idea of losing you is destroying me. I don't need you to save me, I just need you to promise me you always be there.
I want to be able to touch you and share my physical life with you. I almost said no expectations, but I do have expectations. I want a traditional marriage with you. Just the two of us, but you can bring all your headmates.
I understand your insight on tagging this friends and not necessarily lovers. I used to tell people my ex was not my friend, he was my lover and i wouldn't be friends with him otherwise. You are different, you will and have always been my best friend. Best friends can be romantic, but lovers aren't usually friends. You see me more clearly than anyone ever has before and I believe I understand you better than anyone else.
I love you. all of you. all of your parts. all of your wounds. I love you.