How do you tell your parents ?
Hey hey so I’ve baso been using pretty much everyday for 5 years now (1-2g per day (recently it’s been about 3/4g a day) with weeks off here and there if I’m on holiday etc). My bladder is pretty fucked but I’ve been referred to urology alr I’m not gonna get into that. I’ve lost a lot of weight especially the last few months I’m now 45kg as a 23F who was 60kg at 16. My family are all so worried about me (I live with my mum and dad- they aren’t together but we all live like housemates kinda complicated situation). My mum is a crazy Russian orthadox woman who I have a disgustingly unhealthy relationship with so telling her about any of what’s going on is completely off the cards. But my dad…. He is so worried about my weight at the moment and he thinks it’s because he got recently diagnosed with diabetes and we’ve been having to follow really specific diets for him in our house (low fat, low sugar etc) and he’s blaming himself for my weight loss. But he doesn’t know that I’m losing weight because of k and I don’t know how to tell him without breaking his heart and I just don’t know what to do or how to start the conversation I just really need some advice pls. I can’t bring myself to admit all the lies I’ve been telling them the last 5 years and that I’ve been high infront of their faces without them knowing the whole time. There’s obvs so much more to this that I can’t fit here or compartmentalise enough to even begin to explain how bad I am but I’ve just become so fucking good at keeping this secret addiction that I actually don’t know how to get out of it.
Basically, my question is; how do I tell my dad about all of this? Do I just say the full truth or do I sugarcoat it and say I’ve been struggling abit or lie about how long it’s been going on for?