Having the worst cravings I've since February, ik I can't risk it because I have a big licensing exam coming up in a month and a half but fuck it's hard. So close to texting my old plug. Help!!!
So my therapist encouraged me to go to NA meetings, even though my issue is ketamine, but I know one of the things is about being honest regardless of the substance use.
I’m about one step away from Rock bottom and I’m trying NOT to hit actual rock bottom so I’m sharing here for accountability
I’ve been using extremely recklessly. Essentially injecting myself with Ket that I know was not clean (i’m a medical professional so unfortunately know how to reconstitute powder to make it safer for injection). TBH based on how I’ve been taking it. I’m really surprised my body hasn’t had any serious issues (yet)
I’ve had a tremendous amount of trauma in my life and had a bunch come out in extremely emotional triggers last week and I kind of just reached my breaking point. I said fuck it. Normally, I try to use as safely as I can, but in my “fuck it” mentality I didn’t care. I was being extremely reckless and I had a couple of Close calls.
Yesterday was the closest to Rock bottom that I could be (to me and my bottom would be ending up in the hospital with a complication from the reckless use)
My therapist encouraged me to go to an NA meeting and not order any more ketamine, not even the prescription kind
So today’s day one without taking any. It’s fucking hard because all I want to do is not feel the pain of the trauma that I’ve been through.
So I’m here instead, being honest about the struggles, trying to get up out of bed for the day and trying to find motivation to keep going
Just here for support. Please no judgment. I know that what I’m doing is bad and unsafe, which is why I’m stopping, but it hurts and it’s hard
this has been on my mind all day. last night, around 3am, my first - and favourite - ket plug messages me, saying he’s got ket in stock. i haven’t heard from him since january 2025. it’s been 2 years 2 days since i bought from him for the first time, the day my life went downhill. he never lost my number, despite being in jail and switching numbers. i almost relapsed a few weeks ago, i was in an awful place, but everyone was out at the time so i gave up in looking. great timing on his part. i’ve been so alone, anxious and depressed since my exams ended last month. now im looking for a reason to relapse, and a reason not to at the same time. i got a decent remote job and it’s bringing in money i have nothing to do with. i feel guilty even considering relapse.
Hey all,
After not using Ketamine for almost 2 months, last weekend I binged 7g over a period of 4-5 days (Thursday to Monday).
I've used ketamine on and off for 2 years, often taking months long breaks in between weeks long periods of use.
After this last binge, I've noticed discomfort/irritation in my pelvic area/bladder. It's nothing crazy, no pain when urinating, no blood or anything like that.
I'd describe it as more of a constant dull irritation feeling in bladder area along with frequent/constant need to urinate and low amount of urine.
It's been about 4 days since my last dose and I'm still experiencing those symptoms. Needless to say I plan on abstaining from any use for a long long time.
Has anyone experienced anything similar from an isolated binge, and if so, did your symptoms subside after cessation of use? How long did it take to start feeling better or see improvement?
Thanks in advance.
I’ve been off K for about 4 days now but the pain in my penis/urethra is getting so much worse. Sharp shooting pains every minute. Burning and passing little to no urine with little pain relief. What can I do to get any sort of relief?
Completely knocking it on the head seems to be causing me more pain than being on it. Does it get worse before better?
Hi everyone, I have a dilemma with my husband's (ex) friends. I (F32) and my husband (M32) have been together for many years. When we got married 3 years ago, very early on he developed a strong ketamine addiction. Within the first 2 years of our marriage. He went to rehab last year, and it's been about a year now he's been good.
Here's the point. When he was on ket and mixing other drugs.. his mood was very unstable and he lashed out on all his friends and family, making everyone distance themselves. He said some really hurtful things.
Since returning and becoming clean, no one's reached out, he has tried to meet up and explain or apologise. There is one in particular they have been friends since age 5 and every time my husband tried to meet him, he strings him along saying he's not ready to meet yet. He won't allow my husband to make plans either. It's hurting my him tremendously as he dearly misses his friends.
IMO I think this friend seems to be dragging him along. I feel he is waiting until after his wedding so he doesn't need to invite us to the wedding or him to the bux party. Either that or he just doesn't ever want to meet up and forgive him. I'm just not sure how to help? I did say I could reach out to this friend and try to explain on his behalf however he said no because he didn't want it to be forced.
Do you think after a year he is still interested in seeing him? Shouldn't he have meet up with my husband by now if they were best friends? I just feel if I was in that situation, I would give my best friend a shot.
I can’t believe today I am 6 months clean from ketamine and all other mind altering substances after 6 years of almost daily use, and 15 years of poly-substance abuse all together. Life truly is amazing without the use of drugs- my finances, mental and physical health, relationships and self esteem are better than they have ever been before. If you’re interested in quitting k (or anything else), here is how I did it:
- although not for everybody, I joined a 12 step meeting group and started the work. Digging deep into why you became addicted and the distruction it caused to all areas of my life was what made this attempt at sobriety really click, after numerous failed ones before
- changing people, places and things. Unfortunately, you cannot heal in the places you got sick, around people who are also sick. Finding a sober support group, surrounding myself with positive people who do not use, finding new hobbies and spending time in nature has been a huge help
-taking it one day at a time - when I really felt like using, I kept telling myself I just need to stay sober today. Not once had I woken up with the desire to use still lingering, nor have I woken up wishing I had used the night before
- addiction is a disease of the mind, body and soul, therefore looking after those 3 things - exercising, eating good nutritious foods, spending time outdoors, meditation, reading, connection with others, self-care, journaling are key to my recovery
- remembering that I didn’t get addicted in one day, therefore I wasn’t going to heal in one day - recovery is a slow and steady process, there will be good days and bad days but the further you get along the more good days there are
- living in a space of gratitude - it’s easy to get hung up on what addiction has taken from us, or what we don’t yet have, but it’s so important to be grateful for the things we do have, even if they’re minute, such as still being alive, waking up sober, a sunny day. I write a daily gratitude list and really helps me reshape my thoughts and mindset
For anyone who’s struggling, if I can get sober, anyone can. I truly thought this drug was going to take everything from me, including eventually my life. If someone could tell me 6 months ago how good things would get, I wouldn’t believe them, however here I am living a life I couldn’t even comprehend having when I was in active addiction. Don’t quit before the miracle happens!
If you want to get clean, I promise you you can do it. After 2 and a half years of daily use (5 of substance issues in general) I never could have imagined turning my life around. I turned 21 in June and it was the first birthday I’ve had as an adult that I had genuine excitement for my future. As addicts I’m sure we all know birthdays can be the hardest days, so actually being able to enjoy my day was massive for me. During the autumn/winter of last year I was hitting my absolute rock bottom, in November I reached out for support. I had no faith in these kind of things, didn’t think it would work for me, I dodged meetings constantly at first and whenever I went to see my support worker I was still stuck in the same cycle. But after a while I took to it, it helped me to hold myself accountable, and I became more aware of the loop I was stuck inside. I fought hard to quit, and after a few slip ups I finally managed to stop. I want other people to know they can do it, I thought I had no future, that I’d die by this drug, I went through infections, illnesses and hospitalisations without ever stopping, yet here I am today with a clear mind and healthier body. I even got into college. I used to scour this subreddit in my darkest times, relating to all of you, now being on the other side I just want to share it with others. I’ve had an incredibly difficult life, but I still managed to find the light and strength inside to build something new. I know that you can too, no matter where you’ve came from or what you’ve been through. I promise you, you can do it. Feel free to dm me if you would like to talk!
Has anybody adapted Allen Carrs Easyway method for ketamine?
If they haven't, they should. I think it could be very effective.
I know somebody has done it for masturbation with good results. And Allen Carr himself has another book for quitting alcohol.
I've tried a few prompts in ChatGPT but the results aren't very good.
I first used ketamine about 3 years ago but it was rare and I mean it. However 2 years ago I found a way to access lots for cheap and began abusing. It escalated to last summer blowing through 1-2g a day for almost the whole summer. That is when I first got k cramps. From Oct-Dec 2025 I didn’t use because I got seriosuly injured. Jan-March I used 1-2g a day almost every day. Started to get cramps more frequently and longer. I had an episode where dull k cramps lasted over a week and I knew I had to get clean. I’ve relapsed a few times and each time the dull cramps come back after 1 use and it scares me so bad they’re permanent. Last night I used with friends who showed me how to get it easily and I got cramps and I want to quit for good. I can’t kill myself like this.
I know these cramps will go away but I also know that one day they may become chronic. That scares me. I try replacing k with other drugs but I know that’s wrong and I want to be completely sober from everything. K doesnt even do what it used to do for me so I need to face the things in real life that I am trying to escape.
I wanted to share my story because I need a place to talk to.
Hey everyone,
I'm posting here because I'm feeling pretty hopeless and I'm looking for any advice or experiences that might help.
I've completely lost my sense of smell for over a year now after heavy ketamine use. I was using a lot at festivals and parties, and eventually I realized I couldn't smell anything anymore.
I had scans done to check whether my olfactory nerves were permanently damaged. Apparently, they're not completely destroyed, and there's still some function left, which gives me a little hope.
I had promised myself I would never touch ketamine again.
Since then, I've been trying everything I can think of. I've not done prolonged fasts (1 to 5 days) yet, it has to be tested i believe strongly in this. But I'vetaken corticosteroids, and I've been doing smell training with different essential oils every day for the past two months (eucalyptus, lemon, rose, cloves).
Unfortunately, I haven't noticed any improvement.
To be honest, it's making me pretty depressed. Living without a sense of smell affects my quality of life much more than I ever expected.
Has anyone experienced something similar? Has anyone recovered their sense of smell after long-term ketamine use, or found a treatment that actually helped? I'm willing to try anything that's supported by evidence or by real experiences.
I also wanted to post this as a warning. I was using very heavily—probably around 1–2 grams a day for about 4–6 months—and I deeply regret it. If you're using ketamine regularly, please be aware that this kind of damage may be possible.
Any advice, ideas, or personal stories would mean a lot to me.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
i've been using ket for a little over a year, and within the first 3 months i became addicted. using every day, going through a gram in a week or less, trying to escape reality and going into psychosis. i'm not in psychosis like that anymore so i tell myself im not addicted even though im using even more now. but i started getting k cramps recently and oh my god. the feeling of a full bladder being stretched and cut by the accumulated ketamine crystals is mind boggling pain i have to talk myself through. like when you fall and scrape your knee as a kid, the intense pain you feel the moment after you hit the ground. but it's for 15-20 minutes and the whole time im thinking "i have to quit i can't do this anymore ket is harming me" ... but i can't control myself and will cut up lines hours later. the inside of my nose is all red and dotty, and my ears are almost always muffled like on high altitudes because the post nasal drip drains into my eardrums. i barely eat or sleep.
i wish i could just flush my bag. but i know i could make use of it and give it to a friend so i have to hold onto it til then. but its there and i know i could do it. currently i have all my ket supplies in a bubble mailer packed away out of sight.
longtime lurker, first time poster!
my history with ketamine has been pretty much 8 years of continuous use. started in uni, got bad and have struggled with drinking etc.
difficult to admit but throughout all of my hospitalisations and detoxes i used (something Ive only recently told a psychologist/opened up about etc).
for the first time, Ive been able to have periods of sobriety (my longest being 1 weeks!). I have a longtime friend who struggles with ket and since being sober off drink and having these periods of sobriety, Ive really been able to see we don’t even really have a good friendship and they pretty much only hang out with me tween theyve run out of k and want some.
anyway this is turning into a ramble. but yeah, every time recently I’ll have an isolated episode of doing k. and then lose all routine and go back into daily usage. I don’t want this anymore and it becomes so difficult to get my life back on track (think 6 days of not leaving my room and sleeping for 13+ hours until several days later where I can eventually shower. And brush my teeth. And try to get back to normal again).
having money is a massive trigger as well and I quickly become a person i don’t like very rapidly. Ive not managed to have a recent payday which hasn’t ended in a lapse and I don’t want to resign myself to the finality of that happening again so was kind of hoping for advice on getting a normality back to my life and help with avoiding triggers? thanks for all of your help in advance!
whenever i have a period of not using (it could start as soon as a few hours after my last dose) i just completely crash. usually the day after i use ill spend the entire day sleeping most of the time for 12 + hours. its not even something i do consciously nor do i feel tired or depressed when it happens.is there any reason behind this? also worth mentioning that im a pretty heavy user (3.5 g a day on average)
hi guys ive been sober for 2 weeks now, everything in my life feels different for once, i dont want to preach too much in here but choosing God genuinely has repaired my life completely. every other time id try to quit Id be craving so much throughout the day and hate myself, but when i reached my breaking point 2 weeks ago saturday i prayed and i genuinely believe my prayer was answered. Since then yes ive had some slight cravings but nowhere near how bad they used to be, my life feels better even if my body doesn’t agree with that. I feel so much peace and clarity and I know I can do this this time. I read my post from a couple months ago and cried so much knowing I willingly put myself through that. For anyone reading this I does get better, I used to believe I’d die this way and I was too far gone but my life has done a 180 and I could never be happier. I don’t want to push religion on anyone but God genuinely saved me, so I pray that God can help save you too
I saw that AZO tablets are supposed to help relieve bladder pain. On the packaging it says do not take for longer than 2 days. Last time I had severe bladder pain it lasted 4 days - do you think it would be fine if I took them for that long? The pain just started a few hours ago.
Also does AZO actually work? The pain I had last time was so bad that I went to the hospital. I’m rlly scared like I just need something to suppress the pain that isn’t overly difficult to find.
So iv been a ketamine addict for about 3-4 years now but it got really bad at the end of 2024, was using anywhere between an ounce to 4 ounces a day, I was in and out of hospital all through 2025 with liver and bladder problems, I dropped to about 48kg in weight and could hold around 5ml in my bladder before I was bursting for a pee, I was peeing out alot of jelly and always had this extreme burning and stabbing pain in my urethra and groin, I started injecting around this time and i noticed my health went downhill rapidly from there, i could stand up or even make it to the toilet, really bad bladder spasms and incontinence, i actually went to rehab in November 2025 for a 6 month programme, I could hardly walk for the fist 3 months and was constantly peeing i hated rehab for the first half because it was a really intense programme where you have to work in different job roles and get into trouble and punished if you don't go to groups but after the first 3 months I started to notice my health getting better, I gained 20kg weight and was able to hold 60-80ml of pee before I was bursting, rehab did me the world of good and I completed the 6 month, but I didn't take up the resettlement programme that was offered where I would have been given a new house and 1 year aftercare, because I was an idiot, I was out for 3 days before i picked up an ounce of ket, iv been out for 5 weeks and iv probably gone through 5-6 ounces at least and iv fucked my bladder up gain, down to 5-10ml of pee before I'm bursting, struggling to pee, constantly burning and feeling like razorblades in my urethra
I dont know what to do, I'm so sick of this pain but I can't stop doing ket for the life of me, I feel like iv mess3d around my workers and my family and took all the help they gave me for granted, I honestly kinda just want to everything to stop and the pain to go away, my bladder is fucked for the rest of my life and I can't do anything
Thanks for reading, and I appreciate any advice yous might have
I went 2.5 weeks sober from ketamine but relapsed the moment I was in my home environments with access to dealers. I'm not going to let this get me down. All I have to do is keep trying. I flushed $200 worth of ketamine down the toilet today.
Fuck this stupid drug, it is like microdosing death. I want to live! I don't want to escape anymore. Dealing with my pains, fears, and all the little things that make us human is so much more attractive now than being numb. I don't want to hurt my family and partner anymore. And most of all I don't want to hurt myself.
We can do it! We have strength and power deep inside of us. All we have to do is acknowledge it and bring it to the surface to harness.
i think im fortunate enough to have an environmental hindrance from picking up any more. i am coming up on 3 weeks sober and never had any health issues using about 2.5 g/week for the past 9 months. its a good reason to stop using, not being in my normal environment, but every day feels hard and i dont have anyone to talk to about this. iv picked up my hobbies again and work a 9-5 so im busy but still, its just very difficult. any advice would be greatly appreciated.