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For background: I’m currently 2 months and a bit sober from ket. Before I used 14-28gs a week. I’ve started a new antidepressant which actually seems to work. I’m still drinking more than I probably should be, and will do other drugs occasionally.

I feel happy ish most of the time, I still almost reminisce on doing ket as if I’ll go back to it soon. My antidepressants have made me not be able to feel stress/anxiety, I feel numb but happy/ can act happy. However they can’t get rid of my thoughts, the only thing that has ever helped me slow down what goes through my head was ket.

I know I can’t go back to it, but I just want to know how to continue to stay sober. I tried NA and didn’t get along with it atall.

The only thing that is keeping me off of it is my family and knowing how lucky I was that I had no heath effects considering how long and how much I used.

In a heart beat I would take it back up if I could.

I’ve been addicted to ket for 5ish years (23f). It started off only socially at the weekend, then crept into weekdays, then I discovered how much I liked doing it alone. From there it became all day, every day. The amount I picked up would increase, at the beginning it was only a gram maybe two at a time, then I realised buying in bulk is cheaper. Now, it takes me less than a week to get through an ounce.

None of my family knew, my friends just thought I liked it on a night out, even my ex boyfriend, that I practically lived with took 9 months to figure it out. The only people that knew were my uni housemates. However that all changed 2 weeks ago, I got caught by my brother and he told my whole family. So now I can’t use anymore. I was upset and angry at first, but honestly now I think it’s one of the best things that has happened to me. I tried to stop on my own multiple times, but I would always be drawn back. My family have been really supportive and they want to get me help, I’m looking into NA, therapy and other options, but I think having it out in the open has helped the most. It was this big secret that I couldn’t talk to anyone about, I shut people out and isolated my self which made it feel impossible to stop.

I also didn’t see anything wrong with me using I was very high functioning, it didn’t get in the way of my uni work/ job, I have been lucky and had no health problems, and no problems with my bladder. I would occasionally black out, which was fine when I was on my own, bad when I was with people. I’m not sure if it’s related but I have also recently lost about 10kgs, I’m 5’9 and just under 60kgs, which is still healthy but people have noticed and said I look frail.

I’ve now haven’t used for 2 weeks, and I really want to keep it this way. I have been trying to speak more openly to my family and to distract myself I joined a triathlon club (I have been talking about doing this for a long time). I went to some NA meetings but I don’t think they are for me, I’m also starting therapy soon. I’m still worried that this is a phase and I’ll do what I always do and start using again.

Does anyone have any more advice on staying clean and what do to about cravings?

I am also interested if any serious health problems come later, even if I never used again?