How it's going so far at my new branch banker job part 2
Hello, here again to vent about my job! It's been 5 months and honestly...I don't know long I can last. I am catching onto most things, but also thrown with new suprises that have made the job even more difficult to juggle. Now I tend to come home with either a draining headache or feeling completely drained and unmotivated. I also am getting extremely overwhelmed with the job to the point where the anxiety medication that I started almost seems to not work anymore. I don't want to go up a dose because the last time I did a few years ago made me so numb emotionally that I didn't care about anything...like not even caring about living. I have an office a bit away from my other co-workers and if I ask for help from one of them, I still feel like I'm annoying them and thought I recently heard one of them saying they can't take it anymore when they themselves already have things they have to do...even if it might take a max 5 minutes.
I've reached out to a higher up about my situation about feeling overwhelmed and needing extra help, as I don't want to be the next person that leaves, but not saying specifically that I would be leaving at some point. I'm hoping things change, but the more that I talk to my therapist and spouse of how I feel, I'll probably be putting in my two weeks by the end of this month. Even a few others that I had met at a new hire training event a couple of months ago had reached out to me to say that they were leaving their bank due to somewhat similar reasons. I barely sleep anymore, I have no motivation to spend time with my friends and family, and just overall just don't think I am going to enjoy thinking this is my career.