My journal ( I did use AI to make it sound better since I wrote in circles a lot). (Same thing over and over).
I’m 20 and I’ve been trying to turn my life around since I was like 16, but somehow I always end up slipping back into the same habits.
When I’m alone, I overthink way too much. The same thoughts just loop in my head for days. Anytime I try to improve myself or start better habits, I’ll stick with it for a bit, but eventually I end up back at square one.
I’m not really excited about much anymore either. Whenever I get stressed, overwhelmed, or things start feeling hard, I go right back to doomscrolling and porn to distract myself and kind of shut my brain off. I know it’s messing with me mentally, but it feels like my brain just defaults to those habits automatically.
Another issue is that whenever I decide to change, I try to fix everything all at once. It works for a little while, but then it gets overwhelming and I crash back into my old routines again.
Honestly, I don’t really know what I’m doing wrong or why I can’t stay consistent. I’ve been trying to improve for years and it’s exhausting feeling like I’m constantly starting over.
Has anyone else dealt with this? What actually helped you make changes that lasted instead of just temporary motivation?