Struggling with my breakup
Hey all, I did not recently breakup with my ex girlfriend but we ended things officially back in January. To make a long story short of our relationship I was never the best partner a lot of the time. I am a very insecure and introverted person and always have struggled with getting out of my shell and talking about things that bothered me. This in turn led to us never really doing anything even though she constantly pushed and begged for me to, which I am not blaming her at all for. When we broke up she said she wanted me to fight for our relationship, and a the time I told her we wanted different things in life as I really struggle to talk about my insecurities, feelings, and also really struggle with trying things that make me uncomfortable. After we broke up we still hung out everyday until recently. She told me it's because it was all she knew and that she did not enjoy hanging out with me in that time. She has started making new friends and traveling which I am really happy to hear and feel no spite towards her or what she is doing. I have started realizing that I have a lot to work on and after many many years of running from therapy I have made my first appointment, which I am doing for myself and not for her. I've been slowly realizing my mistakes and have been completely unloading all of my feelings and thoughts to her, and I will be the first to admit it's been too much. She insists that she wants to be friends and that she is not going to block me on anything. Is that a normal thing for an ex to do? I am torn between blocking her on everything and keeping that communication open. This is not my first breakup however I did not hate her when we broke up so it's been really hard on me, I just never talked to her about it until now. I don't want to be overbearing ex and I have realized I have been doing that the past few weeks, but I am just very confused. Has anyone experienced anything similar to this?