Am I always the problem?
Lately I've been having some complicated days with my family, they took my car because I went out very late without permission while I was drunk (im 24), I know it was impulsive but it has been an isolated event. Because of this I haven't been able to go out of the house, I only go out to the gym when they can take me (which is pretty annoying). Ive been told by everyone that actions have consequences and that what I did was the cause of this, I usually don't drink as much, only once a week and I've tried to drink less than that, I usually don't drive intoxicated, I almost always drink when im at home and just eat chips and watch a movie. I'm honestly tired that only because I drink and have spent a lot of money, all the effort I put into regulating myself and tolerating their bs goes away. And im angry, im really angry cause they never took the time to understand my bipolar nor my bpd, its always me who is the problem. It's always me the person that my whole family has to put into a spotlight cause they think im too much or have impulsive behavior, or because im angry all the time. My family made me like this, they are too angry all the time and explosive, annoying, they talk about things that hurt others and think it's ok. Ive tried my best to not be like them, I barely talk to them, they always hurt me emotionally and I get exhausted. Im having a really bad time and all I wanted to do was to continue to go to the gym.