I wish my mom would stop talking about my eating habits
I have a weird relationship with food, I don't know/think I have an eating disorder. It's just whenever I eat even just a normal sized portion out meal, I get super bloated and the bloating doesn't go away for a few hours. And I don't generally eat in the morning because my stomach is sensitive, and if I eat in the morning, I feel sick all day.
I think I've gotten better at fixing my eating habits. I try to have one regular meal a day with protein(either being like shrimp, fish, or chicken) with a side of a vegetable. And then I try to snack throughout the day, and those snacks being like a small can of veggies or a tuna packet. I try to eat very high nutrient stuff and protein.
All my life, my mom has pretended that she's my biggest supporter when it comes to my body and my health. Cause Lord knows my grandma is 100 times worse than she is and my mom has had to defend me from her trying to shove diet pills down my throat.
BUT THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ME. All the women in my family are very petite, but my mom decided to have a baby with a very large and muscular man, an intern her child ended up being a very large and muscular. I played football, I did weightlifting, I played track and literally every sport I could do during each season.
Even as an adult, I'm still very much into weightlifting and body building, so yes, I'm still very much big and MUSCULAR.
Tonight? While I'm at the stove, making some Esquites, my mom's watching a documentary on this rockstar who died I think from like heart complications. They talked about how he ate at irregular times which caused a lot of snacking and he had a high cholesterol because of it. And my mom thought this was the perfect time to go, " EATING AT IRREGULAR TIMES, LOTS OF SNACKING, COUGH HINT HINT".
She literally says the words, cough and hint. To be fair, yes late at night sometimes I will eat something, but if I'm hungry? I will eat something, and that will usually be a tuna packet or seaweed. But I try to ignore her, because if I get upset? She will act like the victim and pretend like I'm getting upset for absolutely no reason and being a drama queen.
And then, they start saying the rockstar wasn't following the Doctors plan and he was drinking milkshakes all the time! So my mom loudly proclaims, "MILKSHAKES! He was drinking milk shakes ALL.THE.TIME." and she's looking at me from the corner of her eye like trying to make some fucking point. I don't drink milkshakes!
So I turn off the stove, and I walk out of the room. My dad looks up is like, what's wrong? And my mom's like yeah where are you going?
She literally does this all the time God forbid I eat a single carb and then I have to hear her give me a lecture about how carbs are bad when this woman only drinks, white claws and coffee😐
I'm not perfect! I will never criticize someone on their diet who's trying to get better. I know it took a while for me to finally get to a point where I could eat more than just a single meal a day without feeling like I was gonna throw up, but I hate that she acts like she's my biggest supporter than makes these snide comments. She's the biggest hypocrite.