anxiety
Some days I just constantly feel like shit, and it's all this damn anxiety. I've been to the ER 2 times over the last 3 months for heart related worries just for me to be completely fine. I don't know why I can't just be happy with how I'm doing, I've lost so much already. I definitely don't have the best sleep schedule, usually falling asleep at 3 or 4 AM and waking up around 10 to 12. Sometimes I don't even get my full 7-9 hours, such as today. I think it was like 5 or something. It's hard enough to try and relax and fall asleep when your chest is hot and tight, but then I didn't go back to sleep quick enough when I woke up at 8. I just want to feel normal again. I've dealt with anxiety for years but March of this year was when it reached its worst. I hate having to have the people around me deal with how I am, they don't deserve any of that...