u/Beneficial-Bet-6497

Going through saturn return in Aries, having a stellium of Retro Mercury-Saturn-Sun stellium in the 12th house. Exhausted of not being able to take action, exhausted of never having my desires fulfilled. But at the same time I am growing stronger. Not able to develop discipline regardless of wanting to. Not able to take action when needed. Losing communication always being misunderstood and blamed for shi i haven’t done well you know… my question is does it get easier ever? Knowing that i am screwed in every direction up until now. All the hypnosis, self love stuff, all seem pointless to not working got diagnosed with adhd and other comorbidities and meds fail to work, 100% a neurodivergent brain. honestly losing motivation not cause i don’t desire just cause those desires never come true well not technically but they come true when i’m way past like 3-4 years down the line since i desired, at which point i dont want anymore and mostly not coming through. Worst part is having a stellium with Aries ascendant because you have all this fire to create to move but you are put in a prison of your own mind.

I am trying to break free from luck that’s just screwing up my results. I dont know if its destiny whatever , i am looking to break this identity and i am wondering how these tapes can alter the Identity. Also i have stellium in my 12th house with saturn in aries along with sun and mercury! Fire energy in the house of isolation, hidden world, spiritual realm and past life karma