kinda hooked up w my crush: am i putting too much meaning into it
hi! first time posting on reddit so please be nice. i'm 21m in college and mlm.
TW: SLIGHT NSFW
i've been friends with someone for a long time and have secretly had a mini crush on them for a while time altho it wasn't anything too serious. recent developments have made me confess to him that i have had a crush on them for a while, but they respectfully told me that they were entertaining someone already and would have been willing to be courted by me if that weren't the case (note: he's still single but is allegedly talking to someone). he also complimented me for my looks and personality.
last friday night there was a party in my town (he lives 2 hrs away from me) which he went to, and asked me if he could crash at my place after the party. i agreed and planned to let him stay without any ulterior motives or indecent thoughts. we went to the party together and had fun as friends considering we rarely meet up. after the party when we went to my place we continued talking and having like bedtime stories until he finally told me he was going to sleep. i jokingly asked him if he was up for cuddling as friends and he agreed.
i initially just hugged him while he was lying upright so it wasn't really an intimate position but then he shifted positions shortly after to face me and hug me back while wrapping his leg around me. our faces were so near that i could feel our noses touching and i could hear his breaths. i felt him leaning closer to me and i also mirrored his act by moving closer to him too. when our lips accidentally touched, he suddenly asked out loud if i was trying to kiss him and i said that i wasn't but if he was open to it i wouldn't mind doing so. he said he was okay with it and both of us immediately bounced toward each other and proceeded to make out.
it was a really wholesome makeout session since it didn't feel like it was motivated by lust but instead felt very intimate and organic, with there being banter, laughter, and teasing in between since we were already close to each other. i couldn't believe it was happening and he was so cute while doing it that i could feel my heart melting. however, during the night he prefaced that whatever was happening in my dorm room that night would stay there. in short, we didn't do anything more than kissing and cuddling since i still respected him enough to not go for anything more.
in the morning, i could feel him kissing me softly while i was asleep and when i finally woke up he initiated making out again with even more intensity than the one before sleeping. it was such an unexpected experience but i don't regret any of it. after he left my place and went back to his town, i find myself unable to recover from and forget the experience and he's constantly on my mind.
i want to shoot my shot for real since the experience just made me want him more and i want to treat him the way this cute goofball deserves to be treated. but i'm conflicted since i'm not sure regarding his status with the one he's seeing (we both didn't mention him at all during the act) and i'm scared he won't want to be friends anymore if i show any more motive. (note that even though i liked him for a long time i didn't necessarily want to pursue him until the party events)
am i being delulu for thinking there was something that night or was everything really just casual? (side note: i have had one night stands and hookups before but none of them were like the one with this person)