u/Beneficial-Tour-7131

Pre-hrt but hopefully that will change soon.

I have pretty severe bottom dysphoria, but after reading the posts on here, I think I'm starting to hate this T dominant libido. Things I hate about it

1. overwhelming need for release which DOES NOT GO AWAY. So annoying.
2. Sudden loss of interest after release. My wife could cuddle for hours, but I can only manage 5-10 minutes, and even then, I'm itching to get on with life.
3. Kinda related to the first point, but during these stir crazy phases, everything and everyone leads to sexual thoughts. There is so much more to life than sex, but this frickin Cis Male libido makes it hard to see.

I haven't started HRT yet, but I almost always masturbate using the Magic Wand. I have noticed the following quirks of masturbating this way.

1. If I am watching porn, my orgasm is very similar to the traditional of way of masturbating.
2. If I am not watching porn, my first vibe orgasm will come pretty quickly, and it will be a little more pleasureable than the traditional way. However, my second orgasm will take some time (5-10 minutes), and it requires mentally thinking about what turns me on. Oddly enough, thinking about porn does absolutely nothing. Rather, I have to think about past sexy times with my wife, and that pushes me over the edge. The pleasure level of this orgasm is MIND-BLOWING. I feel it spreading from my pelvic region, but also from my mouth and jaw at the same time. It lasts slightly longer also. After this type of orgasm, I'm so much more at peace, and weirdly enough, no guilt or shame.

So my question is, what type of orgasm is happening in scenario 2? I wouldn't call it a full body orgasm. My technique with my wand is pretty simple. I hold the wand against my pubic bone and press deeply. I try to avoid applying to pressure my penis.

Follow up question - if i am already masturbating like this, is there a better chance of me experiencing the Big O when I do start HRT?