u/Beneficial_Card9655

Iam so upset and confused. So bassicaly last Saturday night I lost my virginity too a boy I had knew him for 3 years but never in that way it started out with a kiss then proceeded on too more I was very drunk when we did it too the point I hardly Rember I just Rember it going in and hurting me and I must had looked clearly uncomfortable and he asked me what was wrong and told me we could stop if I wanted (it was also his first time too) we did if twice that night he promised he wouldn’t leave me and said he wouldn’t tell anyone later on that day I get told he had his phone taken away I believe it and don’t think much of it until I find out he told the biggest snitch ever that me and him had sex and then near enough everyone found out and then I told my bestfriend who then told me he had a girlfriend but was going to break up with his girlfriend for me I was so angry I never knew this. So then on Wednesday he texts me saying he had his phone taken of him ( the whole reason he said he had his phone took was to give him time to break up with his girlfriend that’s what he told my bestfriend) that he gets it back on Friday and that he wanted too see me on Saturday wich I said okay too Friday comes no text Saturday comes no text Sunday comes no text he never texted my freind tried calling him for me as iam not ment too know about the girlfriend and when she tried calling he was out with the girl she called twice he hung up both times as soon as he heard her voice. Now I feel like such a bad person and a home wrecker but I honestly didn’t know and if I did know I would had never had sex with him. One of the worst things is that iam still going to have too see him at parties and stuff as iam freinds with his freind group.