AITA or Have I got something wrong with me?
I (29F) have started to wonder if I have something wrong with me. I have recently had a sort of… realisation that I am just the way I am and due to being like this all my life, there’s no changing it. But I’m worried that it means I’m not a nice person?
People always assume that I am something I’m not (based off looks and personality) but really, I’m just chill and love staying at home. It’s hard to give context about 100% of my personality, but I’m the friend that people know they can turn to, call when in trouble, chill with, show up, give advice, loyal… but don’t ask me to go clubbing or a massive party because I hate it.
For example:
I’ve been invited to a friends birthday party which is in central London for 9:30pm. I feel guilty that I don’t want to go. I hate public transport. I hate crowds. I simply don’t enjoy plans starting so late. I love her, known her for years, means a lot to me, but going out at the time I get into bed is just diabolical. Regardless of if I’m having fun or not, when my social battery dies… it’s DEAD. I will want to enjoy myself but I physically can’t.
It’s likely I am going to go to maintain a good friendship, but I don’t like that I won’t really know anyone.
I’m quite introverted, maybe after effects of bad childhood trauma or just lazy? Not sure. But who else can I ask other than Reddit? 🤣
Basically, am I a ‘not very nice’ person or are there more of me out there?