Need survival advice
Ok let me start by saying I get it, I know who and how he is, I know this relationship is toxic and I should leave. It’s not that simple and rn I just need to survive. He’s done a solid job of getting me all alone…eroding friendships and family ties so I have no one to honestly talk to about this.
I’m so goddamn tired. I need advice on how to not let the constant micro aggressions, accusations, and subtle attacks (bring on the gaslighting!). Because I was already pretty sensitive and when I’m exhausted I just cry.
And what does he say when I cry? Come on everybody, together now: “oh there you go playing the victim again.”
I can’t gray rock all the time because he accuses me of weaponizing my depression. Or hiding something. (Because if I seem sad it’s because I’m thinking about cheating or hiding cheating) 🙄 I give him my phone and he acts like I’m insulting him by even suggesting he’d stoop so low. Besides, I’d just lie anyway, right? I’m so tired of being accused, side-eyed, the micro aggressions and negative comments anytime I’m doing anything on my phone. Y’all have seen this movie. 🙄
I’m not working and we have a young child (who adores him) so until I can get my resources together, I’m stuck. Any survival skills and advice are greatly appreciated. Thx.