I cried because of the 20 second hug
The days are dwindling before my first enters kindergarten and today I gave him a twenty second hug and with each second i was remembering each preceding year down to his infancy. I broke down crying and just thought about how much I wish I can relive the past. I think about how I wish I could have played more with him even though I was exhausted. All the ways I could have been a better dad. I wish I would have put my phone down more. Or taken him out to experience more. Or even just dance and be silly instead of keeping up with the house and catching up on sleep. I used to be his best friend and person to play with, but now he wants to play with the other kids at the playground without me. It feels like I'm losing my little baby and it's happening much faster than I anticipated.
Anyways, thanks for listening. I'm crying again lol. I'm sure plenty of you are in the same boat with me.