u/BetterRemember

I am 30f and I have pretty severe asthma. I even died of an asthma attack caused by COVID for 6 minutes in 2021. (So now dying is less scary to me than pregnancy because I have done that before! 🤣🤣🤣)

I am quite active despite this, I love swimming, yoga/hot yoga, lifting weights, walking walking and more walking, rock climbing, skiing, golf, badminton, cycling... basically most things other than running and I try to do that too sometimes lol. 😭😔

I am terrified of pregnancy in general but doubly so because of my asthma, I can't imagine having a whole person in the way of my full lung expansion and then having to do the physical-strain equivalent of competing in multiple triathlons and getting into a moderately severe car crash for hours and hours!

How did you do it? Did you worry about being high risk? What did the flair-ups and attacks feel like while pregnant? Did your asthma bother you during labor?

My MIL suggested a surrogate and would personally find me one the moment I say the word, but I have some moral hang-ups around that so idk.

I am 30 and arguably the fittest I have ever been. I remember in my teens and 20s up until about 26 I was prone to brutal hangovers, vomiting in the morning, spinning vision, and couldn't even keep water down sometimes. I would be out of commission all day.

Now I mainly get a histamine response??? I had about 9 beers last night, watching Ronda Roussey dominate lol, that same amount would have caused flu-like symptoms when I was younger. I am not a large person by any means. 🤣

Now I am sneezing and super congested. My new hangover protocol is an allergy pill and my neti-pot after a steamy shower. I think I also drink a lot more water than I used to, but damn.

Still annoying, but 10000000x better than what I used to get. Anyone else?

Because of my autism I am not very good at being obedient the way god expected his angels to be.

I have what is called "pathological demand avoidance" even if I wanted to do a task, if someone demands for me to complete the task, it feels like I might die if I do it all of the sudden.

Beyond that, I think the way he is interpreted by the modern Satanic Temple makes a lot of sense. Satan/Lucifer is supposedly the most physically beautiful being to ever exist, and under the Satanic Temple's interpretation, Lucifer is extremely opposed to rape, it is entirely forbidden and victim blaming is not-acceptable.

As a conventionally attractive woman, I totally understand why he would be so against gross violations of the body like that. It would be so terrifying to be the most beautiful being ever and then to be cast out and abandoned by your father/boss/creator or whatever god is to him.

I just really wish nobody worshipped these ancient war gods anymore, like the Christian god and Allah. I wish we could get past this dogmatic bullshit as a species and value the collective instead. I'm sick of the Christian victim-blaming mentality being dragged into modernity. Either you didn't scream loud enough and you get stoned to death or you *did* scream loud enough and you are forced to marry your attacker, it's so sick and unevolved, yet even though the laws have changed, the mindset persists.