Treated harsher in school growing up?
I tried putting this in r/blackmen a weeks back but I hadn't gone through the sub requirements before posting.
Did anyone else get treated with a fundamentally different, harsher lens in school than everyone around you, even when you genuinely weren't one of "the bad kids"?
Looking back to elementary and middle school, I was mostly annoying, kind of a twerp, but the reactions I got were wildly disproportionate to what I was actually doing. Every time a teacher reprimanded me, it came with almost overzelous indignation and pearl clutching. What I remember most is the feeling of being monitored. Like, trust was never on the table, and I could only hope to briefly avoid their scrutiny for a bit. Teachers and administrators looked at me less like a student and more like a problem that needed to be closely watched.
The part that gets me is that I was a weird kid who got bullied and had no real friends until high school. It created dissidence because I was fighting off this label of being a perpetrator when I was more often a victim of other people's bullshit. I couldn't really defend myself without facing a teacher's wrath for disrupting a class, but they always turned a blind eye when someone would call me a bitch to my face.
I'm not trying to bitch about the past or start a "one of the good ones" conversation, because that shit is it's own trap. I'm just wondering if school treated you like a threat by default, regardless of what you were actually doing.
Did anyone deal with something like this or maybe a thing close to it? Were you one of "the bad ones?" If so, do you feel like you constantly got overblown reactions to minor shit?