Over 40 and attempting to go back out in the world.
The reality is for some guys if you come from a rough background, it's like starting your character at level -10 while everyone else starts at level 30. So by the time they're 22 years old they're level 50, and it takes you meanwhile much longer just to reach a similar level. That's how it was for me, and I can only see how damaged and low self esteem I was from my vantage point now. It was impossible to see it then.
Guys, if you have a chance to be a normie, please do it. Please take that chance. If you are not too badly traumatized, and you have a chance at a career and marriage and a family, please do it. Life is a one way thing. I'm working on those things now, and I hope to be a happy normie one day. But yeah. Don't think that being an outcast forever ends well. Eventually you have to pick the pieces off the floor and start building something again. And honestly, normies are so much happier than us; it's like they're completely oblivious to the harder challenges of life that some people have.
Sure, I had abuse and trauma and was unable to normally function in society. That's why. So it's not my fault. It just means I started with a more difficult setting. But if you have the chance I'm telling you, please don't delay. If you are like me and also have a difficult setting, then keep working and keep going. Eventually you'll climb out of the hole, like Batman. Just keep working at it, it doesn't matter what age you are. What matters is you get out of the fucking hole.
As for me, who I would I rather talk to? Someone who's never seen pain, doesn't have any scars? Or someone who, with a broken back, trained until they could climb out of their own hole of desperation? That person, to me, is far more interesting. I could hardly stand the former kind.