How to know if I’m picking the right person to settle down with
I (M25) think part of me is afraid that I can only pick one person for the rest of my life, and I don’t want to regret picking the wrong one for me. My girlfriend is (F27) btw.
Quick backstory on our relationship so far:
We started as fwb, then after being on and off with that, we eventually started dating. Here’s a plot twist, in the time we were apart she had a relationship with an old friend that moved in with her and he had just lost his wife. They love bombed eachother and were pretty deeply invested even though her family and friends disapproved. As I reached out to talk to her again, I found out about this relationship and that he also died like a few days before or after I reached out which is a massive shock to me at that point in time.
Since then we had to overcome a ton of insecurities and differences. At one point I emotionally cheated on her with a girl I was interested in, but never actually did anything and she held it against me for a long time.
Fast forward to today (all this happened over three years, we’ve been dating officially for one full year) and everything is as stable and normal as ever, and we’ve both grown into such responsible and good members of society compared to our party going selves when we first met. Work is good, we each have goals and are reaching them together and individually which is great.
My girlfriend is such an awesome human, but for some reason I still find my eyes window shopping and feeling like there could be “more out there” for me yk.
Like our relationship history has its bumps, but it’s stable now for sure and she’s more in love with me than ever, and a little part of me feels bored time to time. Other times I’m also just madly in love with her and can’t imagine it any other way.
I’m wondering if this is a universal experience to feel like this or is it just me?
Edit:
Alcohol is not her friend, she’s had outbursts where she just fights without caring about the consequences of what she says. She’s fought with her mom in front of me, broke up with me every time she drank (like once a month) for a little while. And also we had a very public fight at one point in front of our friends one night because she kept in the feelings about me emotionally cheating and started talking to other guys in front of my friends and I. Which was super toxic behaviour, since then she’s given up alcohol and says she doesn’t want to be that person anymore and things have been pretty good since, but I still feel the weight of that past from time to time. It makes me wonder if I should just start a new relationship with a clean slate or if we should stay in this because we have all this history and understanding of each other.