wide awake, i’m not sleeping..
i know the things i have to do
but seems too hard to start
i’ve weathered dark days before
yet this has stilled my heart
no matter how i push ahead
i feel i just can’t win
like every time i reach for light
the darkness pulls me in
and still i know the golden rule..
what we believe comes true
the thoughts we quietly hold inside
shape everything we move through
so even writing this feels strange
like i should know better too..
because i’m giving breath and weight
to fears i once outgrew
i’ve been devastatingly low before
and somehow made it through..
found wisdom buried in the pain
and truly, deeply grew
but grief and uncertainty is different
it settles in your bones
even in a crowded..living world
i still feel all alone
carrying all the weight and worry
has me at a loss
and still there’s a dying hope
a rope I will be tossed
and somewhere underneath the wreck
of all i’ve stumbled through
beneath the silence and the ache…
there still remains…you
a thread that time could never cut
though years have drifted by
through hidden words and subtle signs
through every last goodbye
I know most of it was fate
maybe some dreamed into view..
but no imagined thing could ever hold
the way my thoughts return to you
i stopped reaching like i once had
though love itself stayed true..
i simply didn’t know
if it was really you
to speak into a quiet void
to wonder what was real
to question if the things unsaid
were things you also feel
but if somewhere within the silence
you were searching for me too
then maybe all these untelentless signs
were leading me to you
and if connection still exists
beneath the years we knew..
in any form this life allows
i’ll ALWAYS welcome you ❤️
(with the biggest hug ever!)