This isn't recent but it was good , it was just eggs
I'm tired of being last in everything and it's just fucking me up , I just got kicked out of my house for not letting my step mom talk shit to my brother / my dad lets her run over us all the time and anytime I ask him to do anything about it he gets upset and bitches about me asking. These people that knew my dad as a kid adopted me into their home and their great people I just can't get over everything because as a kid I saw my dad as my hero and as soon as I clawed me and my brother out of my biological mother's house I learned quickly that my step mom was the same person I just got away from and it's been killing me for years , being docile and taking loses from her and constantly tiptoeing around her and doing everything to make sure she was comfortable . I joined wrestling in my sophomore year of high school and was dogshit at it and met a guy den and he had the strength my father couldn't have the chance at grasping and wanted to do everything for him to be proud of me but it was a worthless endeavour because at the end in my senior year I went to state and placed 16th because I was injured and couldn't defend attacks and instead of going , I'm proud of you it's only been three years and you've come so far he balled up my clothes when giving them to me and pushed me with them then didn't speak to me the whole day then the next day all he did was talk shit and it burned a whole threw me because yet again I last to the person I wanted to be 1st for . Btw my parents weren't there until after I was done wrestling which I guess is ok but they weren't there when I was sobbing my eyes out because I just went out and got shit on . I went to the Marines after that and in the 4th day of boot camp I slept walked so I got sent home and when I got home my girlfriend broke up with me calling me selfish and all this shit I wasn't to her , enthen 2 weeks after being home my step mom called me selfish because she was projecting and I said why would you say that I just told you my ex just told me that and she looked at me and told me " She was right " which like wtf is that , I told my dad and he proceeded to do jack shit because he's a pussy whipped little bitch . My brother was cutting my hair and I told him to do a cut that ended up not looking great and she starting talking shit on him and I told her , " why would you say that are you trying to kill his confidence " then she sayed her favorite line don't talk to me that way, I stopped talking to her after that . Then one day out of the nowhere my dad just opens the bathroom door while I was showering and grabs something and I told him why are you in here why didn't you knock the door was locked and he looked at me and said it's my house and your my son and walked out , so realizing I wasn't being respected I just stopped talking and he took it as disrespect and out of nowere he kicked me out even though I literally did nothing to him . Then 2 weeks after being moved in here I get the news that even after 6 months of waiting to go back to the Marines and prove my self I get rejected. I was dieting down to my athletic wait at 1500 cals for 2 months before I got kicked out and that plus all the stress I passed out one day out of nowhere on the phone with my buddy . My buddy that's helped me through a lot of this and I have helped him through a lot of shit to just starts ghosting me after saying we would call texts me back two days later saying he was just to addicted to playing a game that we used to play together and that's why he didn't call and he knew I just got rejected from the Marines and that I wasn't doing well like wtf kind of shit is that . I just am never enough for any one I am not good enough of a wrestler for my coach to give me the respect I crave not enough to defend my brother against my biological mother not enough to have a friend that actually cares not handsome enough not anything enough for her to stay .