u/Beyotchmuah

I always end up relapsing, and im scared it’s gonna happen again. I feel like I can’t control myself and I have no community around me. My parents live out of state and I just moved back to my hometown and don’t have anyone but my boyfriend who doesn’t understand what I’m going through. I went to an N/A meeting two months ago and I felt uncomfortable im not sure if it’s because everything felt so real. I wanna give it another chance, but I’m nervous im not sure what to do anymore I need help. I go weeks being sober and then I relapse and pick myself up. It’s horrible, because im not even using my drug of choice. I’m just so afraid of losing everything again. I feel so alone.