r/addiction

While I’m still not exactly sure of it myself, I believe I have polysubstance addiction and so quitting snorting suddenly, after year’s worth of daily use (with occasional breaks here and there for a few days), wasnt as mentally challenging as one might expect it to be.

What led to this decision was my increasing paranoia about the state of my nose, the state of my nose, and in the leading days, smelling blood randomly throughout the day. I didn’t have any whistling, nosebleeds, or visible perforations but they felt very irritated and injured.

Anyways, it’s been about a week since I stopped snorting, and up until yesterday my nose was doing very well. Then yesterday, my right nose just clogged and started to run a lot. It didn’t help that I was sat in a train when this occurred without a warning and I was left to try to discreetly collect the pooled liquid with the back of my hand every 5 minutes. Today, the left nose started doing the same exact thing, and I was constantly sneezing throughout the day and always sounded out of breath because I could only breathe from my mouth. And I wouldnt really mind these, but my nose itself hurtsss. It feels dry, very fragile, pissed, and always irritated as if I was having a multi day long allergy episode.

Is this normal? Istg my nose didn’t hurt nearly as this much while I was using, and it wasn’t cocaine I was using so the whole anesthetic effect thing is not in the equation either. Im genuinely puzzled, and I would appreciate any advice on minimising nose symptoms going forward

I don’t know where to begin. I am 26 (F) and she is 18 (F). I found her lyrica pills in her purse with 300 milligrams as she had bought them from a dealer.

From there on then, we hooked her with a professional guidance counselor for addiction. It’s been since July the 2nd.

Then, today, she wanted me to help with her homework on the laptop. I found in her messages where she delivered one to an unknown number the same price and the exact same milligrams with a foil sheet.

I asked her if she is taking again (I didn’t tell her I read her messages) and she denied and tried to brush it to the side as if the messages don’t matter.

Then she got aggressive that the document didn’t work and kicked me out of her room, blaming me for it, and even early in the morning she was yelling from the top of her lungs to the point it woke me up.

I am shaking in my room right now. My mother is at work and I cannot afford to make her nervous and scared. I want to call her counselor for advices.

I don’t know what to do.

This may the unpopular. First off I know the person has to want help to get help but what if they are in so deep they cant even think straight enough to get help?

I am mad, I feel more should or could have been done. When the cops are called on your daughter who is high and running the streets naked how is she not a threat to herself? Or when she is found high squatting in a garage how is she just told to leave? A drunk would have been picked up. I spoke to the police multiple times and begged for them to call crisis if they saw her again but it never happened. I called crisis but never had an address. Instead I got the dreaded knock at the door, 2 police offers saying can I come in?. Her boyfriend who I gave his name multiple times gets pulled in for a few days and I would bet they never even spoke to him about my daughter's death, yet I am sure he called 911 but left the scene.

I just feel we should have better ways to help them. I know my daughter was in over her head and the addiction was too strong, but I also know she didn't want to die.

Maybe I am making no sense but I just wanted to get these thoughts out. Thanks for listening and yes I am in meetings and counseling but I also have a little boy who misses his mommy also.

I'd (Uncle) Ben clean for years. Then I visited my old supplier one day. They were having a 3 for $5 sale 🤦🏿‍♀️..

It was heaven while it lasted. Went back to my supplier, sale was over but they had Family bags for cheap so got one of those.

Just recently I caved and bought a 27oz carton...Fuck!

Nearly completed my 3rd day off ketamine. Reaaallly tempted to have a bump right now. Any tips?

I use alchol and hash/weed very casually.

but recently I'm using more hash/weed because I reconnected with friends who are addicted to the stuff, they did some hard drugs in the past but now they stick to only weed / soft drugs.

the thing is in this short period of 2-3 weeks I feel like I'm getting addicted and soon I won't be able to get out.

I don't know if I should cut them off, set clear boundaries or stop using for good.

I got through depression, self harm, suicide attempts all without using or getting addicted, it feels so stupid to through away all the years and things I worked hard for.

I have BPD too, but I never though I'm this susceptible to drugs especially after all the progress I made mentally and in my life the past few years.

Advice is much appreciated, I know I can't think clearly for myself right now.

First post here sorry if it's the wrong subreddit. I will try not to take much of your time.

I have always smoked weed and have drank socially for a long time now. Last year something urged me to explore the other things life has to offer. my poison of choice has been ❄️, 🎈, and Molly. I've been having a fun time, I'm going out more; which I never used to do, meeting new friends and even reconnecting with old friends. And this whole time I have been telling myself that I'm young and I'm just experimenting.

The past month or two I've picked up my use just a little bit more; having done that, I'm starting to get anxious. Feeling like this might be a problem especially if I keep going... I never feel like I want it, I especially don't feel like I NEED it, however if I have anything on me I'm probably going to use it.

I don't know if this is the start to something very bad. A lot of what I'm reading online it's saying to cut all my friends off who use. I feel like It's too soon for that, almost too drastic for my situation.

💛Any and all advice will be appreciated. Thank you💛

Yesterday I had 5 months sober and I feel amazing. My fiance had 6 months sober yesterday and we have been together for 6 years. Things can be stressful and my car is leaking oil faster than I can put it in. Im going to beauty school and I love it. A month after I got sober my son's father kept him after a visit and put an immediate restraining order between my son and I however he had been using with me and went to jail and everything has been in my favor since. Hardest 33 days of my life and my fiance kept telling me and encouraging me if I could get through it and stay sober the sky is the limit. Now there's a protection order and a restraining order between him and I and him and our son. Extremely abusive and manipulative and my son has confided to me his dad is abusive to his current gf. I am so greatful and thankful for my creator and all my support.

I just can’t. I keep relapsing idk what to do

7 days! Wow! I'm 28F, and the longest amount of time i've managed to go sober in the last 7 years was for about 8 months. This year, especially the last few months, has been one of the worst years of my life. I drank so much it almost cost me my job and my life, but managed to make it to the hospital to detox safely. It's been a really hard 7 days.. My friends and family don't really talk to me anymore or just straight up have me blocked. I understand I might have done or said things that were wrong of me to do/say, however even though i'm getting better now finally, things will never go back to the way they were before. Even with little to no support i'm proud i'm finally making the right choice to quit before it actually kills me. I just wish my family or at least my friends showed some type of support or at least an i'm proud of you moment.. something. Either way even though it hurts, at the end of the day im doing this for myself, not them.
Anyone out there that feels like me or like you don't have support, if you're reading this, don't be afraid to reach out. We might be strangers, but we're all fighting this battle together. Best of luck and wishes to you all. Just remember you are loved and you got this 🫶🏻

Was clean for a week, might not mean anything to most, but haven’t been that clean in 2 years atleast.im in a weird ass relationship and this isn’t the sub to vent to. I’m going crazy and coke isn’t even helping at this point.

Tried nicotine a few days ago.

Already hooked. Turns out, sometimes, it really does take just one hit to get you.

And I'm already trying to justify it to myself. Thinking, I've had a hard last little while. And at least it's not as "dangerous" (in the short term) as some of my past drugs of addiction. As if that's an excuse.

F*ck.

My last boyfriend died of a suicide/od. He and I had a fight and I loved him SO much but he had a hole in his heart nobody could mend. His brother had died the year prior to me meeting him and it destroyed him. My boyfriend was a wonderful, handsome, healthy, successful person. You'd never know he was going through what he was going through. I was blindsided by his death. Looking back there were signs but at the time I never thought he would risk something so drastic. We had a fight, I told him I didn't want to see him again (it was a stupid fight) and he said he'd make sure of it. He went to a sketchy motel and bought some powdered fentanyl, snorted it and he died that morning at age 27.

Now, 7 years later I have a new boyfriend and I'm pregnant with his child. It was an accident but I'm excited to have my first baby at 29 and I can't wait to meet her. My boyfriend has a child with another woman and that child is 4 now. There was some drama there as she is incredibly close with his family and was ask for money from him on top of the 700 in child support he pays. I sent her a message to please stop asking for money as he doesn't make much and we will need it for the new baby. He will continue to pay his full child support ofc but no more than that. I also asked her to please stop calling him everyday when he was at work as it made me incredibly uncomfortable. Texting about the child and the occasional call would be much more appropriate in my opinion. That lead to his family hating me and calling me names, telling him to leave me etc. It's been kind of really horrible. But I knew I couldn't stay in a relationship where his world revolved around his ex.

Anyways, I think because of that drama he has come to resent me. It caused his family to push him and I out of their lives and it's really sad for him. I'm not sure if it's because of this drama but he is always bring up my boyfriend who passed away and being really mean about him. Saying that he was my ex and that I need to let it go and yada yada. But most importantly he is saying I cannot post a yearly post honoring his memory anymore. He says if we are going to have a family he doesn't want me posting about another man. That he will leave me if I do. It makes me cry so hard I can't believe how cold he is being about something that I barely made it through. The mental anguish I experienced after my boyfriends death almost killed me, you can die from a broken heart and I almost did. I really wish he would be kind and understanding about my boyfriend who passed but he wants me to throw away any photos, delete any posts and completely forget he ever existed. He says he is worried that when we die I will go and be with my boyfriend who passed in heaven instead of him. To me this is all so much and so hurtful and so ridiculous. I don't know what to do. My baby is due in two months and I love him but between us family being awful and him being mean about the hardest thing I've ever dealt with in my life I don't know if I can stay and be happy.

If you are reading this, don't give up.

Weather you are on the first day of turning your life around or on your 5th year - stay strong. Find something or someone that gives you that much more motivation to perserverse and if for no one, do it for yourself; you got this.