u/kaylapoikilo

I did it 🥹 I really thought this would take my life and I made it one fucking year, I have no words for myself, it feels surreal 🤍

Semi long post alert 🚨

Me and my dad have never really had a true father daughter relationship like ever, I was never given I love you’s and he was rarely there for physical, emotional and mental things I would have needed from him, he has done a lot of stuff in my life that you really shouldn’t do to you child, for example putting women over me, treating my sisters like princesses while I was like the “ugly stepchild” even though I am his blood, he also took me and my sister away from our mother for a very long time at an early age and it was completely out of spite.. there’s so much more but when I got into my 20’s, he started going to therapy and truly has changed a lot and even asked me to go with him like 3 years ago but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it, he doesn’t understand that a lot of the mental stuff I went through in childhood up to current times has a lot to do with him but I know it’s up to me to not let that ruin my life. I want a relationship with him so bad but it feels so forced and when he sending stuff like this, I feel really uncomfortable and weirdly content inside and I usually don’t know how to respond, we rarely talk so it really is like he is a stranger to me and I feel like I just lied to him saying eventually we will get close when I really don’t know if that is possible, I just need advice please I don’t really know what to do and where to start, thank you so much for reading.

Hey guys it’s been a minute since i’ve posted but i’m still here and going extremely strong, rarely ever think about doing it again, thought this was something I would never get over and end up dying from but god had other plans, and has so much more in store for me 🫶🏾