u/Big-Cry-405

I feel like for every comfort I have, there are also so many pains and tragedies that I have dealt with. For example, the year when I retook my uni entrance exams cost my parents so much money in tuition they did not go back to visit their parents in their home country for a while (6 years for my dad :( while 5 years for my mom before she lost her dad earlier this year) and my marks only marginally improved in that retake. Yet, I live in a safe country with them where me and my sister have slowly but surely moved on to the next level of education in reputed institutions. I am 23 and still confused by what to do with my life, what career to go into, how much I have denied myself out of guilt from just not doing well in my education (e.g. travelling, partying, choosing a course that I want) and I don't know how to give my parents thanks and help them. I'm not in poverty but I have been stuck in middle class for so long. Things like concerts that school peers attended when they were 13 or 14, I am now experiencing for the first time at 23! With my own money too. I also feel pressured by my parents to go into a particular profession (Medicine) but I simply don't have the highest grades currently and will graduate only decently from University.

Mainly, I need advice on:

1. Best career fields for me to choose (I am in engineering currently with a year of undergrad left) or at least explore as a start. Do suggest any masters/post grad degree if you think it is relevant.

2. What kind of spiritual guidance to seek to alleviate my worries! Or it can be hobbies too, doesn't have to be strictly that

3. Any honest warnings or advice to at least approach life realistically without having too much hope.. I already am just happy to survive...

4. (Very secondary) any advice for love or relationships?

I can’t believe I’m turning 23 and feel like I am not moving in any direction in life. My efforts just feel so scattered but I can’t gather them because I don’t know which field I should focus on. I am studying biomedical engineering and my GPA in college hasn’t been the best. I don’t know if I chose the wrong major also. People are like so clear on what they want and I’m just here still exploring options. With my parents’ requests for an answer (I know I’m entering Saturn-Sun) and a really bad job market nearing me, I feel like breaking down. It’s been affecting me so badly mentally that I have even stopped my self-maintenance. I really need some kind of guidance on a path to choose because I don’t want to waste my life. I don’t need hope, I just want some insights on my strengths. I have been doing a lot of leadership recently, but even that feels like a distraction. Please help me out.

I’m at a point where I have to make a decision on a career to undertake. Recently since Aug 2025, I have been getting many leadership opportunities, but I am not sure if it’s leading me to or away from my financial uprising. Even with accomplishments in most of the roles (with one helping me bag my current internship), I am not sure if this is all a distraction and I am built to just develop hard skills on my own. My parents wanted me to study medicine (based on their own consults with astrologers), but I see more interest for law. I don’t want to spoil my life knowing the sacrifices my dad made but am feeling very split on the direction to take. I have tried to study astrology on my own to see if I can make a decision, but that’s also failed. Please advice me where you can. Youth matters like travel, love, marriage have all become secondary in how grave my life sounds at the moment!