u/Big-Current2932

I am not a pastor. I am coming back to faith after a very long time away. I am studying the new testament to start mainly because truthfully and possibly shamefully I have this deep fear of god. To combat this i am trying to focus my studys on what I believe to be gods ultimate way he has shown his love for us all Jesus christ. However while I study this I am still filled with this fear that if I sin if I make a wrong move god may punish me by takeing away those I care deeply for. I am terrified of this of making a mistake of truly wanting to do better and truly trying to but failing it may result in me losing the pepole I am closest to.

I do have other questions and hope I can make this a resource in my journey back to faith.