Hello! I am not sure if this is the right place to put this, but I honestly wouldn’t know where else.
Every time something happens to me, like losing a really close friend or just being really sad for any reason, I go back to the person I was before. I push everyone away. In high school when I had no friends I was close with my family, watched a ton of anime, and drew a lot. Now, whenever I feel like I could potentially lose everyone I have, I go back to who I was then. I rewatch all of the anime’s that I hyper fixated on, I go back to drawing, and I try to spend more time with my family and push away my friends. Just things that I stop doing when I get distracted. I don’t know if this makes sense. I can’t tell if I change who I am when I’m distracted by life, or if I do some kind of regression? Is there any meaning behind this or am I overthinking? Thank you guys for your time. I really appreciate it!