I am new to the country and run dairy so I dont interact with many females. I am also new to language. Is it just because people are racist to south asains?
Mine was when I went into a store after school with my white friend in an expensive neighborhood and the employee kept following only me around the aisles the whole time. The second we split up, he stopped pretending to organize shelves and literally just stood near wherever I walked. Didn’t say anything directly, but I could feel it immediately. Eventually it got so uncomfortable that I just left without buying anything.
so before i get into it some background about me: im 19M, grew up in a pretty religious household, both my parents are devout christians and faith was the centre of everything in our house. I belived in it a little as a kid but deep down I always had some thing in the back of mind saying "this is bull shit"
ok so around 16-17 i started actually looking into christianity from an outside perspective, not to due to not beliving in it or anything i was just genuinely curious how non christians see the world and why they believe what they believe instead of what i'd been raised on. that rabbit hole led me to reading more and questioning more and eventually i just couldn't unsee the contradictions and inconsistencies i kept running into everywhere (also the churchs history of crimes againts humanity player a part). After finding out it wasnt overnight or anything it was a slow drift over like a year or two until i realised id already left mentally, i just hadnt said it out loud yet
I spent the last couple years as a closet atheist. sitting through church, nodding along to grace at dinner, the whole performance. It was really exhausting honestly but i genuinely thought i could just keep it up until i had my own place and it wouldnt matter anymore
idk what made me finally say something tbh. id been thinking about it for a few weeks and one evening i just built up the confidence and did it. I expected anger, i expected disappointment. i did NOT expect to basically be told i was no longer their son
my mum cried. my dad shouted at me. then came this conversation i wont get into fully but it ended with them saying i'd betrayed the family, betrayed god and "western culture" and they dont recognise who i am anymore. my dad said he needs space. my mum hasnt texted me since. I tried calling a few days later and got nothing
Im staying with a mate from uni rn which im grateful for but it still feels so surreal. these are the people who raised me. Its hard to belive what religion can cause people to do, even to there own children. i keep replaying the conversation in my head wondering if i said it wrong or picked the wrong moment even though i know logically it wouldnt have mattered
not really posting this for sympathy i just needed to say it somewhere people might actually get it. has anyone been through something similar? did things ever get better with your family or did you just eventually make peace with it?