Life of depression winning
I am not sure where I even begin. I'm 39 and I feel lost and empty. My life feels like a tragic novel of bad choices and wrong turns. I am breaking myself in a career that I thought would temporary, I take care of my bedridden mom who has Leukemia, I have 2 kids who I haven't talked to in years because my ex hates me, my body hurts constantly, and I know my mental health is held together by string. I've never been a "pity me" guy, I'm the guy who smiles and toughs it out. My biggest flaw is I procrastinate and I make decisions. I could have stayed in the military but I didn't fight to get medical treatment, I could have kept my marriage together but I refused to listen, I could have had my dream career but I didn't want to get off the couch.......I'm constantly weighed down by my failures and I completely understand to move forward but every failure is in my face daily. I'm just so tired .....also no I'm not S ...