What should I do now ?
I've been in relationship with my boyfriend since 2 years .
I caught him emotionally cheating on me a month ago . He was flirting with another girl (from his gym ) in dms . I only saw 2 screenshots where she was sending him inappropriate videos and he was asking for more . It had a flirtatious tone. He was literally hiding his phone from me and when I asked for it , he straight up refused.
I confronted him about it. He told me that yes there was this girl that he was attracted to from his gym. She slid into his dms and he responded but there was no serious relationship. He told me that he only loved me. All he had for that girl was lust . It was just harmless flirting he added .
He admits to emotional cheating and apologises but kinda laid blame on that girl entirely .
I asked him to show me the entire chat , he refused in a loud manner . I asked a 1000 times but no. Reason: he was embarrassed...
So I asked him to block her at that moment. He denied stating that the girl will madly follow him in the gym if he did that . He would have to give her an explanation before he finally cuts her off from his life permanently .
However he promised me he would discuss about this later and would give me an explanation .
But no .... instead he deleted everything behind my back and avoided any type of confrontation on this topic for a month . I wanted him to initiate the conversation but he acted like nothing happened. He visited my place for 5 consecutive days but said nothing about it.
I will also add that almost a year ago , this boyfriend of mine was searching ways to text that same girl . I accidentally opened his search history and it was " HOW DO I TEXT A GIRL FROM MY GYM WHEN SHE KNOWS I LIKE HER " and " THERE IS NO INTERACTION EXCEPT EYE CONTACT BETWEEN US" . I forgave him as he explained that he was just making situations in his head .
He played victim card and reminded me of my past mistakes when I told him about breakup. He insisted his rights on me.
After a month , I felt bad and decided to forgive him .
We are back together but I often find myself seething with anger whenever I think about this .
I forgave him because he is overall a good person . Kind , supportive , loving .. i know its sounds weird that im praising him ...
I believe 1 mistake doesn't define his whole personality but still this small thing hurts so much . I want to move on but I just can't...