Found out I am adopted
Long story short a couple weeks back my uncle and mother got into a huge fight, and in result information came out about the birth of me and my "mother" not even actually being my bio mother. Then to further add insult to injury my uncle then gave me my bio mothers contact info then I reached out and she said that she wants nothing to do with me, not even a relationship or simply a conversation in person. Now my "mother" is upset that I went behind her back to reach out to my bio mom, and has been giving me the silent treatment for awhile now. She even tried guilt tripping me when she found out I knew and said she's done all she could for me as a single mother, practically gaslighting me to forgive her. I'm just so pissed because I feel like everyone is taking it out on me when I was the one lied to, and I can't even express myself or ask for more questions because both of my moms are not budging. How do you even deal with this level of trauma, and worse part is I live with my "mother" and everyday just seeing her face gets me more angry internally. My uncle is acting like he cares but it's only to hurt his sister more, and he's always been performative with his love for me, it was never real. I don't have siblings to confide in because we have a strained relationship, and I don't even know if I have other siblings on my bio mom's side because she wants nothing to do with me, or to even meet up. I don't know why i'm writing on this thread, maybe it's because i'm just desperately looking for comfort and want to hear if anyone went through something similar so I can not feel more alone than I already do. It just sucks and truthfully I'm fucking heartbroken. How do I find out about my true history, and how can I get more information on where I came from, and to find my bio dad if possible? I live in Canada and want to know what I can do and where to go from here. I don't know my bio mom and dad's full name and just want to know how I can figure this all out. If you can help me that would be greatly appreciated, thank you.